Impossible to retrace the steps

Even as I was doing work just now (taking a short break now) I can't help but think that I really screwed up so badly this time and I feel so sorry for being such a bother to Prince.

I am feeling slightly a bit more better after having talked with my roommates but I still feel like I'm wearing a mask.

I also think that Xia is trying to make me feel better and I really appreciate her sincerity but for now I just want to wallow up and cry really but I did my best to not show it to anyone.

I've Whatsapped the one person that I can really trust now but she hasn't woken up yet so I'm just waiting to get at least a slight bit of comfort from her.

Dear God, forgive me for having troubled him.

Probably ruined all my chances

Ton of assignments. Suddenly was told I didn't have enough years to be in university. How am I supposed to deal with this?

Above it all, I bet, I seriously bet, no guy in my class would ever think I'm datable ever.

Why?

I climbed over the metal wall that can also be used as a table and a chair to get to my seat. Twice.

The second time, Prince saw me.

So good bye to having any hope of him ever thinking that I'm attractive.

Maybe I did that on purpose. I don't know.

I am like such a tomboy and I can't be cute and sexy. I have absolutely no idea how to be cute and sexy.

Life is screwed up now.