Friday

It really does seem that I am more or less over him.

I don't get excited when I see him nor do I try and find every single chance to be next to him. In fact, last Friday, I didn't even notice that he was in class until the morning break.

On the other hand though, Carl keeps bugging me and it's slowly starting to get on my nerves and what adds to the fuel is his egoistical personality.

As soon as it was the morning break, I went to the professor to ask some questions and when I came back to my seat he immediately asked me a question.

Carl: Beth, zero to the power of anything is 1 right?

Me: Uh, yes. I think so?

Guy friend: No you're wrong. Zero to the power of anything is still zero. It's any number to the power of zero is 1.

Me: Ah, yeah, he's right!

Carl: No! There's some theory that I read before about this-

Guy friend: Why are you so stubborn??? Here I can prove it for you.

And they continued bickering for awhile but I turned around to talk with Tia instead and in the end Carl just walked away, refusing to admit his error.

And after the professor left, Tia and I went in front of the class to perform the dare we assigned to each other; she had to dance the 'Macarena' while I had to sing a remix of the Teletubbies theme song with 'Old McDonald'.

Yeah... I really did give it a 100% and I'm just thankful that people clapped warmly at the end. Prince and Carl were talking (that's when I noticed Prince) and I saw that Prince wanted to continue talking but I just sang louder, to annoy him most probably.

But after that Carl came to talk with me and I really felt uncomfortable because it felt like he was cornering me saying "Beth, stop doing weird things." Whatever, okay. It's not like I wanted to do that that badly. Luckily my guy friend helped me out again and Carl went away eventually.

I feel much better now. I don't feel like I need a guy to complete me and neither am I desperately looking for one because I'm sure when he comes, he'll be just like how I imagined it to be, better even.

Wishful thinking I know but that's all that I can hope for at the moment.

I wonder when those feelings will strike me again.

Little Red Riding Hood

I should've posted this up last night but I was really too tired. I have a lot on my plate these days and I really need to do my best for my studies.

Funny how I can seem to juggle my studies better when I'm having a crush on someone and make time to write in my blog as well.

But anyway, back to the main point.

For some time now, Tia and I have been giving each other dares to do which in truth is something I generally avoid but I wanted to add some spice in my life to be able to differentiate the monotonous days so I decided to just go with the flow.

And so, on Monday, Tia dared me to tell Prince the story of Little Red Riding Hood.

I couldn't sleep well that night knowing that I'd face him the next day, babbling some nonsense which he has most probably heard before and I was nervous as hell because I can't remember the last time I had a normal conversation with him without being awkward.

And I was also afraid that he would reject me again.

The next day arrived and I found myself growing even more anxious by the minute.

Carl tried to talk to me again and I did my best to be normal to him but Tia pointed out to me later on that I always seem so cold and frigid around him and that probably makes him think that I'm playing hard to get which I most certainly am not. Tia pities him and I find myself pitying him as well but I can't help but dislike guys who like me when I don't have any interest in them and when they ignore the signs of disinterest that I'm giving off.

Anyway, again, back to the story.

So it was the end of class and I really found myself dreading to speak with him because, come on, why the hell would anyone just come up to you to tell you the story of Little Red Riding Hood???? It makes no sense at all.

Tia actually dared me to do this first to Carl but I rejected the idea since it would raise his hopes up and that's the last thing I want, especially if it meant that I would be the one to initiate and engage him in a conversation, so she chose Prince which is almost equally terrifying but definitely a better option.

And so I marched up to Prince, prepared for the worse.

Me: Hey Prince, are you busy now?

Prince: Uh, Carl's on the phone now- (Why the heck did he mention Carl??? =-=; I don't want to talk with Carl and it's a good thing that he's on the phone hahahaha)

Me: It's fine, I just need 5, no, 3 minutes of your time.

Prince: Okay...?

Me: Have you heard the story 'Little Red Riding Hood'?

Prince: Yes, I know it.

Me: Okay, can I tell you the story?

Prince: What makes this one different?

Me: Because I'm telling it and you've never heard it from me. (Oh how pretentious of me, I know)

Prince: Okay...

And then I humiliated myself for the next three minutes talking about how Little Red Riding Hood found a map to where her grandma lived and how she had to eat her own grandma's flesh with Tia standing beside me and Prince with his awfully cute face just smiling away looking oh so puzzled. Tia later on told me that Prince kept looking at her with the 'What-the-hell-did-you-do-to-her?' look the whole time while I on the other hand had my eyes shut. I think he knows what's going on since he heard me tell Yu that I asked Tia to walk down the stairs and count to 10 last Friday.

And right when I finished telling the story and I was saying my 'Thank you for listening to me being an idiot' to Prince, Carl came over hurriedly but at that point me and Tia turned around to leave and all I heard him say was "What happened?" Poor guy. I saw Prince smiling as he was talking with Carl as Tia and I packed up and he was probably saying how weird and odd I was for telling him the story of Little Red Riding Hood. I said thanks to Prince again as we left the classroom and that was that.

Honestly, I feel a bit better that I talked to him and that it was nonsense so that in a way it just further shows that I won't pounce on him or anything and that I still want to be friends. Hopefully this will somehow catalyse the repair of our friendship.

And that's it for now. Let's see how things goes tomorrow.

And for Friday as well since another slice of my dignity will be eaten again in front of my course mates oh boy.