I felt so out of place today just because I didn't see him the whole day.
Yes, I'm supposed to be ignoring him as much as I don't want to but I feel bad because I have to do something so vile.
For the first time in three months, I spent one of my breaks inside the lecture hall.
It was only for the first break though cause no one else wanted to go downstairs and I didn't want to be alone.
I really did feel awkward in there.
Previously, 20 minutes was really not enough for me for a break.
Today, it felt like a million years.
He really did preoccupy a lot of my thoughts and... whenever I was near him, time flew by in a nanosecond.
I can't focus too much on him next week cause I'll be having my tests in a fortnight.
I am really behind in my studies because I've been thinking about him too much in the past month so I must do my best to focus at the important task at hand.
I rejected the scholarship today and it felt good.
I sincerely hope he doesn't hate me.
Hoping that as time passes by, this whole thing would just clear up. It should anyway.
Going to become more patient.
Need to study a lot tomorrow. And do my projects as well.
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