Maybe it's due to the lack of sleep but I'm definitely not in the best of moods today.
I just read Honey Hunt by Aihara Miki just now and I realised that most of her mangas are about a girl being liked by many guys at one time.
Which brings me to one of the few things that is constantly on my mind.
Does anyone actually find me attractive?
When I take a good long look at myself, I wonder who the hell would.
And yeah, my best trait is probably my kindness and politeness but honestly, when was the last time you ever heard a guy falling for that over good looks and an out-going personality?
Which is why, I really don't see a future for me to be with Prince or at any rate, another guy.
I have never experienced any situation where the person I likes also likes me as well and now that I properly think of it, it's almost near impossible for that to happen to anyone. It's amazing that other people can experience this and they are so lucky.
I wonder when will that ever happen to me.
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Tuesday, January 22, 2013
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Sent
Because of the incident yesterday, Tia asked me to inbox him and I did.
And I am really trying to put my hopes down as low as possible but annoyingly, they just raise themselves up even higher and I freaking hate that cause now I'm in a really uninspired mood now which is bad since my exams are like super super soon.
The reason why I didn't want to add him is because I still wanted to live in a dream, that he is the perfect guy bla bla bla even though he probably isn't.
Well, that is true in a sense.
The minute when I saw that he went clubbing and all, I felt myself loose a bit of interest.
I just like guys who are really good and nice and probably the only guy that fits that bill that I've wrote about is Victor.
Of course I haven't gotten to know Prince that well yet but I can already see that I am definitely not suitable for him.
In this world, I feel like I'm still a child while almost everyone in class is an adult, going to clubs, smoking, drinking and what not.
And that's when I start to fear that because of peer pressure, I'll change and become someone that I will absolutely detest. I'm scared that I'll change for the worse.
I'd really like to blame my good girl image, the girl who doesn't like drinking and clubbing, because I feel like I'm cut off from socialising with people.
Okay, I will go off soon. I really need to do my work.
And I am really trying to put my hopes down as low as possible but annoyingly, they just raise themselves up even higher and I freaking hate that cause now I'm in a really uninspired mood now which is bad since my exams are like super super soon.
The reason why I didn't want to add him is because I still wanted to live in a dream, that he is the perfect guy bla bla bla even though he probably isn't.
Well, that is true in a sense.
The minute when I saw that he went clubbing and all, I felt myself loose a bit of interest.
I just like guys who are really good and nice and probably the only guy that fits that bill that I've wrote about is Victor.
Of course I haven't gotten to know Prince that well yet but I can already see that I am definitely not suitable for him.
In this world, I feel like I'm still a child while almost everyone in class is an adult, going to clubs, smoking, drinking and what not.
And that's when I start to fear that because of peer pressure, I'll change and become someone that I will absolutely detest. I'm scared that I'll change for the worse.
I'd really like to blame my good girl image, the girl who doesn't like drinking and clubbing, because I feel like I'm cut off from socialising with people.
Okay, I will go off soon. I really need to do my work.
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