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Because of the incident yesterday, Tia asked me to inbox him and I did.

And I am really trying to put my hopes down as low as possible but annoyingly, they just raise themselves up even higher and I freaking hate that cause now I'm in a really uninspired mood now which is bad since my exams are like super super soon.

The reason why I didn't want to add him is because I still wanted to live in a dream, that he is the perfect guy bla bla bla even though he probably isn't.

Well, that is true in a sense.

The minute when I saw that he went clubbing and all, I felt myself loose a bit of interest.

I just like guys who are really good and nice and probably the only guy that fits that bill that I've wrote about is Victor.

Of course I haven't gotten to know Prince that well yet but I can already see that I am definitely not suitable for him.

In this world, I feel like I'm still a child while almost everyone in class is an adult, going to clubs, smoking, drinking and what not.

And that's when I start to fear that because of peer pressure, I'll change and become someone that I will absolutely detest. I'm scared that I'll change for the worse.

I'd really like to blame my good girl image, the girl who doesn't like drinking and clubbing, because I feel like I'm cut off from socialising with people.

Okay, I will go off soon. I really need to do my work.