Almost crystal clear

I got another dream about him and this time it was almost crystal clear and I can still remember parts of it despite the fact that I've been awake for an hour now which is odd cause I'm one those people who forgets almost everything she dreamt of.

June said to me that when you dream about someone it means that that person is thinking of you and as much as I'd like to believe that it is true I'm sure you'd agree that it's actually the other way round.

So here's how it went, or at least, the beginning of what I can remember.

He was with me and my family on an outing but my mom wasn't there and my dad wanted to go around by himself so he was in charge of all of us. I think all my other siblings were younger versions of themselves but the both of us were at our present age.

What I do remember the most is that it was like a Japanese fireworks festival setting, with all the open air stalls and lanterns and I could see shrines and it was late evening or maybe it was night.

So we walked around a lot, the rest of them being playful like kids while he and I just talked and it felt so so so comfortable talking with him. It felt so real and our words just flowed easily.

When it was time to go back, my siblings pestered him to buy something for them (I think it was a cake) and I joined in as well and somehow all my informal slang came out as well and he was pretty amused. We didn't buy anything though so we walked up some stone steps to where our dad was and then we all got into the car.

Both of us sat in the back with Summer and at first we were talking but my dad demanded silence so he started texting with me. We were talking about books if I'm not mistaken and I was teasing him a bit. In the end we both just whispered and smothered our laughs.

I woke up after that and I felt much more refreshed compared to the previous mornings I woke up.

Also, I don't think I will give up on him easily. Why?

Last night I was wasting time on Omegle and I began chatting with a nice enough guy who was interesting. But even though he was, I just kept thinking of Prince the whole time.

I asked the guy questions regarding relationships and he told me that if a guy does make a first move like chat you up first, there is something in you that he's interested in. Physically, mentally, I have no idea.

Sometimes I wish I sat next to Prince during the exam but if I did, I'd have never been able to do last minute studying on the topic that I thought she wouldn't ask me but she did.

Maybe he was waiting for me to talk? I don't know.

I can only hope that I'll be able to talk with him the next time I see him.

A second sign

Exactly how do I know that I really find him interesting?

Well, a few nights ago, I actually dreamt of him.

I don't know what the hell I dreamt about (it was pretty innocent, mind you) but one thing for sure is that whenever I dream about a guy, I know that I am seriously attracted to him.

For instance, with Broccoli and Red, I didn't get any dream about them when I got interested in them. For Broccoli, I only got one dream about him recently but even then, I didn't feel anything in that dream.

The dream for Prince though, it happened very fast, as in, when I admitted to myself that I am interested in him, I got a dream about him.

I have two girls I hang out with currently. One we shall call Yu and another Isa. I haven't told them about Prince yet but I will just keep it between me and June for now cause I still keep in contact with her. She's one of the few friends I actually still keep in contact with on a weekly basis. :)

Things that happened to me today, well...

One of them is that when Yu and I were going down the stairs, we happened to walk behind him and if I had been stupid, I would've normally spoke out loud because he was there. Instead, I did my best to make my voice soft.

It really isn't much but when I began speaking with Yu, he turned around a bit to look behind him and yes, I'm sure it was a coincidence but it makes me happy all the same in a way that he wanted to know who was behind him.

And then after lunch, while the three of us were settling in class, Yu told me that one of her friends thought that I was pretty because he/she saw my profile picture on Facebook and I was shocked and got all flustered and started acting really stupid and he walked in the lecture hall which made me act even more stupid.

He glanced my way once, most probably because of that, so I did my best to stop being a fool.

And that's about it.

I sincerely hope that I'll get the opportunity to speak with him, especially now that I have more confidence to talk with guys, and that I won't waste it like what I did when I had feelings for Law.

I shall sign off here. Hopefully I won't think too much about this since I need to concentrate on my studies.

Too soon? Maybe...

Wow this has been a long hiatus indeed.

About Law, I don't feel too bad now. I mean, I do regret certain things but I can't help it if he likes someone else cause I can't control other people's feelings.

I thought that I wouldn't feel attracted to any guy at all when I got to Italy, since I like Asian guys more than those who aren't.

The first week I got here, I saw a hot Italian guy who is really nice and friendly but because I found him attractive, I didn't dare to talk with him and I acted really distant and cold so he probably hates me now. Not like I really liked him, I just don't want people to misunderstand me. I have to change so that people won't misunderstand me.

Anyway, the point is, even though I found him really, really, really hot (hot enough to be a model, seriously, with the height and killer abs and smile and blue eyes), I didn't feel anything that I felt like when I first saw Law.

Thinking back, I wonder how I fell for him so fast.

I really must re-read back all my posts about him one of these days when I'm super bored and in the mood for lukewarm humour haha. Too busy with university assignments these days anyway.

But the main thing here is that on the first day of university, a week ago, I saw a guy and I got a really good vibe from him, like I can tell he's a really nice guy.

He's really, really good looking (in my opinion, although not as hot as the Italian guy, whom we shall call Red) and he's also quiet when needed, smart, doesn't really care about style and has black hair. I don't know why, I just like guys with black hair than those who are blonde.

Yes, these are all my first impressions of him.

Those girls he usually talk with are lucky to be friends with him, seriously.

I bet all the girls are attracted to him. He's half Siberian and half Chinese.

On second thought, I think I saw him even before the first day of university but I just can't remember when.

But, I'm not going to do the same thing like what happened to me earlier on this year, falling for someone before getting to know them any better. It'll end up like Law's case again, maybe.

I hope that this time, I'll have more courage to talk with him.

Our age difference is bigger this time too, if I'm not mistaken.

He's 6 years older than me hahahaha. XD

And for me, that's a good thing cause I think the age difference should be at least 3 years and not more than 8 years.

But for Joseph Gordon-Levitt, 13 years is no problem for me either. XD

I hope that I'll be able to talk with him as our lessons together lengthen. Maybe that's why God made me switch lecturers haha.

I was initially with a different one but I realised I was in the wrong one so I switched.

When I first got into the classroom, I didn't see him. So, I thought he wasn't going to be in the class but hey-ho, he showed up late for the lesson and sat behind me which is a nice surprise for me. :) 

And I seriously don't know if it was because I was running a fever or something but I was blushing the whole time like a fool. I could feel my cheeks burning up especially towards the end of the lesson.

I must not stare at him though. I have to do my best to not bring my hopes up high like the last time.

I just hope that now I'll look forward to going to university more. :)

He shall be called... 

Wow, this is difficult. I can't think of anything at the moment.

...........

Prince.

Kill me but that's the best name that I can come up with. Haih...

So I have to sleep early tonight so that I can see Prince tomorrow! :D

I was a bit sad previously (last week) cause we only had 3 classes that were the same but now all our classes are the same! XD

Okay, I really have to go now.