Gone instantly

I studied with much difficulty all day. I couldn't concentrate at all. I managed to finish copying my notes and to add side notes but not much could get into my head.

So I thought I should try to distract myself by going on Facebook or reading manga (I found a really good one called Hatsukare by Tomori Miyoshi) but I just couldn't. I was unable to really think straight and enjoy going online.

And that was when I realised that I really wanted to talk with him badly. And oh gosh does that sound annoying and brat-like but I really did and I don't know why and because of that my head began throbbing (not like it hasn't been throbbing for the past couple of days over related subject matters).

So I thought I should try to get some rest because I wanted to wake up early to do another summary for my notes. I talked with Anna for a bit about this and she told me to not worry so I said okay and then I got into bed.

And I couldn't sleep at all. I usually fall asleep fast especially when I start to imagine things but I just couldn't and I knew why. There was nothing I could do to make the throbbing go away.

I tried playing on my mobile and logging onto Facebook but it just couldn't make my mind sleepy and it was one of my last resort techniques I use to put myself to sleep. He wasn't online and I felt a bit sad.

Thus, I made up my mind to study instead so I got up and turned my laptop on and started to take some notes down but I needed the internet as well so I turned it on and just for the heck of it, I logged onto Facebook.

And there he was, online.

I wanted to talk with him but I hesitated for a bit and did some notes but I couldn't stand it so I messaged him.

Me: Hey, can I ask you a question or are you busy now?

Prince: yea, u can

And then we chatted a bit, this time slightly longer than the previous one by 2 minutes ahahahaha. (I'm sad for keeping track, I know).

It went quite okay and he chatted very normally with me and I am happy for that. At one point I kind of ended the conversation but he asked something so the conversation reopened again and I would say we got just a tiny bit more closer cause we exchanged slang words.

Talking with him made me feel less nervous and I felt waves of relief wash over me when I chatted with him. He used smiley faces and all and I feel quite good about that.

Ah, but I don't think he's interested in me. That's what I think. I mean, he was nice and all but he didn't ask much questions about me and even though he did offer up some info about himself he didn't bother to get to know me that much.

And I am feeling surprisingly relieved and I don't know why.

I don't feel sad, more like, I feel happy that he actually might consider me as a friend.

So I should be content with that. I should. Really.

This is good though, even though I'm a bit upset and disappointed, at least it isn't as bad as when I liked Law and I got too upset when the smallest things happen. At least Prince responds to certain things.

I think I'd really like it if he considers me as a friend. It'd be nice to have an actual guy friend.

I just hope I didn't piss him off or annoy him too much. I think I was a bit embarrassing at some points but I hope that it was only me who thought it that way.

I guess I can sleep well now but I think I'd like to do a couple more of notes. :)

Thank you, God. I would have never had this chance if it wasn't for you.

And I'm actually feeling sleepy now. I will sleep at 3.30 a.m. maybe or finish 5 lecture notes, which ever comes first. I'll sleep for 4 hours only maybe.

Half full or half empty?

I sincerely believe that our house had the best cheer routine despite the fact that we had 10 marks deducted from our score just because some of our stunts were "too tall".


We had the zeal and we truly showed it.


But despite that fact, I feel really sad that Law didn't come to the event.


I kind of expected that cause he isn't the sporty type and he hasn't been online lately so I'm guessing that he's studying super hard for the upcoming test and because of that, I'm going to study super hard tomorrow as well.


And now that I have some time before I go off to sleep (to repair my eye bags) I'll just finish up this survey that I got tagged in.

7 Facts About Myself

1] I want to be a mangaka when I grow up but my parents want me to be a doctor. 

It's not like I don't mind being a doctor cause then I'd get to help loads of people but I feel like I could be more passionate when it comes to something art related than science related.

2] I'm quiet when I first meet a person but that doesn't mean that I won't try to initiate a conversation with the person that I'm with.

It's just that I don't know what topic to broach especially if I'm with someone I like.

Unless of course I'm friends with that person, even if it's Law.

I wouldn't hold back from being who I am.

3] If people are blocking me from getting out from a place surrounded by tables (like in class), I'll either climb over the table or crawl underneath it with no shame.

4] I'm not a girly girl nor am I a tomboy.

This makes it hard for me to talk to people and even more, find people I can actually have a normal conversation with any quality.

Come to think of it, I can't remember the last time I've ever had a really good conversation with anyone regarding other stuff than Law.

I'd like to have a really awesome conversation with someone. 

A conversation that makes me feel excited and happy and passionate and hopefully vice versa for the other person.

5] I laugh out loud when I watch horror movies.

Because almost all of them makes no sense.

I only get scared of the concept of the movie cause later on I'll be fixing the scenes in my head and get more imaginative of the outcomes before I compare them with my life.

Then I'll get freaked out.

6] I never know what to answer when people ask what my position is among my siblings age-wise.

Since my elder sisters are twins, I don't know if I should say that I'm the second eldest or the third eldest.

7] When I like someone, I can somehow manage to link everything I see and think about to him.

I'll also try to get opportunities to talk with him.

Most of the time (well, this is only my second time liking someone I actually know), I'll try to get closer to him by being near him as much as I can without being too obvious.

And now I shall go and enjoy sleep.

Or maybe I'll play the guitar for a bit before heading off to sleep.

I must prepare for the busy week ahead. I'll hardly have any time online.


PS. I just went to check on my usual "love prediction" and here it is:


Expect to plunge yourself into some new physical and emotional experiences with someone adventurous.

I wish that meant Law.