Hanging

It's already bad enough that I have to give up on Prince because he has a girlfriend.

I really don't need him to make it worse for me, even though it's highly unintentional.

There I was with Tia, about to go to our project's site to do another thorough survey, when Carl and Prince suddenly appeared in front of us.

Naturally I felt a bit happy that Prince was there but Carl kind of spoilt it in a way.

Carl kept talking to me and by habit I gave eye contact and I just talked with him normally, if not almost without a care.

I'm glad that Prince said a few more words than usual and he spoke a bit more louder. It seems as though we could become friends with Carl being our only link sadly.

And then while Carl was still talking, Prince said that he needed to go away to do something and almost immediately Carl got up and followed him. And up until then, I thought that they were just being friendly and I thought that Carl already gave up on me.

Oh gosh why. Why why why why why???

Why can't it happen that the guy I like actually likes me and not some other kid that I have no interest in at all?????

They didn't even bother to talk to Tia which is quite rude but it shows that they actually wanted to approach me, even if it was for the wrong reasons.

Never mind. I'll just wait for someone that I find interesting to me to come along.

Points to ponder

There are those times when I know that I shouldn't think about him and during those times, I'm able to hold myself back. In other situations, I fail to exercise self control.

Sometimes, I just want to curl up in my bed and just think about him and then wonder and regret things that I should have done.

The big question here is "Why do I like Prince?"

If I think about it long enough, he isn't even spectacularly hot.

He is, however, someone who just stands out without any obvious intention clinging to it. I like him for the aura he carries around him (again, just like the Law case =-=).

I had another theory the other day, while going through my posts.

I noticed that he usually sits somewhere near the girl that I think likes him so maybe he likes that girl. And if this hypothesis is true, I will just suck it up like what I did last time.

Another thing to wonder about.

I wonder how many guys I'll write about in here till one of them actually has some feelings for me.

Currently, I've only wrote seriously for two guys and I've mentioned around four other more guys but yeah, when I like someone, I'll stay loyal to that someone. And that makes me sound like a stalker but really, I have the most outrageously puny skill in stalking so there's no way that I could be a stalker.

I shall now sleep since I only had three hours of sleep last night as I had to wake up early to visit the dentist.

P.S. I finally made my New Year resolutions and the list is a whole lot more shorter than my previous ones. Hopefully I'll get to fulfill most of them. :)

Fool

I wrote the wrong post in the wrong blog.


Never mind, at least people I know will know how I feel.




I just really like him. Is it wrong to really like him?




Does he hate me?


He said "No."


Is he annoyed with me?


He said "No."


Is it okay to text him?


He said "Yes."




What's wrong with me?


Why the hell do I still like him? Why? Why? Why????




Is he laughing about me to Angel right now?


Or maybe, he doesn't even think of me.




I know I'm really down now cause I'm actually writing two posts in one day.


I wish I had seized the opportunity to talk to him more and become his friend when I had the chance.


Why the hell was I so freaking shy?




I am really pissed with myself.