It's just a feeling

First of all, I'm currently eating HobNobs, one of my all-time favourite brand for biscuits.

HOBNOBS!!!

Just a short note: I don't own any of the pictures that I've posted up in my blog. They belong to their rightful copyright holders.

HobNobs are just so freaking good and delicious and I'm eating quite a lot cause Lent is in two days and then I'll have to fast since I'm 18 already.

I'm going to fast seriously and abstain from going online a lot.

But, as always, the main focus here is about Law.

I couldn't see him during the first break because I had to go to an Election Board meeting and directly after that, I had to go to our Public Speaking club meeting.

Towards the end of the first break, though, I saw that he came into the assembly hall where we were having our meeting and when the bell rang, I wanted to walk behind him as we went to class but I held of the urge for a few seconds to get some space between us.

When we were about to reach the top floor, he suddenly turned around and went downstairs and naturally I gave him some space to pass by.

End of the first break encounter.

During the second break, I went to the cafeteria and sat next to June and one of June's classmates cause I must learn to be friendly and learn how to initiate a conversation. Then, I went to buy lunch.

As I sat down, I noticed that Law was going to pass by our table on my side but of course I didn't dare to look at him.

June, on the other hand, just continued to stare at him as he was in her line of vision but I didn't want to turn around and take a peek.

And so, I just thought that our break today would go on pretty normal and everything but then Jean just had to start a commotion.

She was sitting at the table beside our table when she called out to me.

Jean: Hey Beth (that's me :)), I think you'd enjoy the view if you sat right here next to me. [She could see him in her line of vision]

Me: No thanks. I think I'd prefer if I just enjoyed the view over this side better for today.

Jean: That's not what I mean!

Well, she didn't say that but you could tell that's what she meant from her facial expression.

Cause the next thing I knew, she pointed directly at him.

She. Pointed. At. Him. In. A. Crowded. Cafeteria. With. A. Lot. Of. People.

And then something came over me and I just stood up, screamed yelled, and was about to go to her table but then I noticed people were looking so I calmed myself down and sat back in my place.

Then, June told me that when I stood up, Law looked at me.

Crap. Crap. Crap.

Now he must think I'm some kind of psycho lunatic.

Then, he switched places and went to sit in a place where it was in my line of vision and I did my best to not look at him.

June said he was smiling and looked in my direction when he stood up to leave at the end of the break but I can't really take her word for it. It could have been a trick of the light for all she knows.

But why did he switch his seat?

I bumped into him again on my way to my practical session but I didn't (or couldn't) look at him cause I was carrying a truckload of things and I needed to watch my step.

Well, that's about it for today.

But now that I think about it, didn't my love prediction yesterday mention something like this?

"Your admirer will approach you."

Anyway, I got more amusing predictions and tarot readings (not the real ones, mind you) for my day today (which is  Tuesday).

First, "Your admirer will react well to your sense of humor and kindness next time you meet".

Indeed, very funny.

Second, "The World - Completion (Inversus) The two of you should seriously communicate with each other. Do not cause each other pain. You are rewarded from your effort, but you have forgotten how to sustain of his (her), so that he (she) will stay with you."

Yes, we should communicate with each other but as far as I know, I'm the only one who wants to.

Third, "Communication is always a two way street and involves both speaking from a place of truth and authenticity, but also involves listening. While you've had the resources for several weeks now to not only open the communication lines but to take this to a whole new level, today's New Moon asks that you make a commitment and that you take responsibility. You're the one with the advantage, so it may mean that you're the one that needs to reach out."

Why is it that all of the readings are referring to the word "communication"?

Well, if I do get the chance to talk with him, I wouldn't know how to start a conversation with him but I do know for sure, I won't let go of the opportunity.

I won't, ever again.

Okay, I need to sleep now soon.

PS. I properly stalked Law yesterday on Facebook XD and I don't know if I mentioned this before but, he is single! :D

At least I know that I have a chance.

Undecided

Today, I humiliated myself in front of the entire cafeteria.


So let me rewind back to the beginning.


I told my friends in the morning about what happened between Law and I yesterday and then I left.


During the first break, when I sat down next to them, all of them went like "Guess who's sitting near us?"


I did know. I could recognize his back from across a hall but I did my best to not look at him too much unlike my friends.


Then, after he left, I suggested that all of us should go back to class so Jean decided to walk with me.


When we got to the stairs, Law was standing near the further staircase so I took the one nearer to where I was standing but Jean just had to start dragging me to the other side and I panicked.


I panicked and dragged her back too the cafeteria.


And I screamed shrieked.


I bet he noticed that.


And suddenly all my friends (the ones who knows about Law) appeared out of nowhere and began teasing me because Law was buying food and they kept on asking me to go and buy food too.


But after that when I started my duty, he was neutral with me like he didn't notice the commotion which is good.


We worked together during the cleaning up time and were quite near each other but that's about it.


After that when we went back to the hall, we had to clean up more stuff and be briefed and he sat quite near to me. :)


Then, we had to take down more newspapers and because I wanted to, I punched through one of the newspaper sheets and I was about to punch another side when he went "Wait wait wait! I want to punch too!" and then he punched the side I wanted to punch.


He grinned so taking all of my friends advice, I grinned and giggled. 


Ugh. =-=;


But at least that was something.


I'm doing my best to practice talking with my seniors especially guy ones.


But, why did Law have to come up to me?


I'm pretty sure there were ones that were closer to him.


I didn't get to work with after that and even though I planned to stay back a bit late to do my homework and maybe get the chance to talk with him, I didn't.


It was because my driver came way too early.


I told my friends that morning that I'd get the courage to talk with him but I never did.


Now they're going to help me although I don't know how. XD


But for the last bit of today, I felt really sad cause I couldn't get the chance to talk to him.


But on a good side, I still have the chance to work with him next week! :)


I got nominated for the Graduation Chairperson post in the Student Council.


I am really shocked. Really.


Maybe I'll be able to get closer to Law in this way???


Anyway, I have to sleep now even though my hair isn't dry yet in the least.


I need to prepare myself for the interview tomorrow and even though I think I'm prepared, I'll just run through my self-introduction speech and a couple of Q&A they might ask me tomorrow on my way to school tomorrow.


I hope that I'll be able to get closer to him.