A thousand words

I feel so freaking stupid.


Have I never even considered how he felt about me being so upfront about everything???


As far as I can see, he didn't take a picture with any other junior but me and I do feel slightly happy because of that but honestly, I bet he felt slightly awkward what with me suddenly talking like that.


But yet again, he said he is a nice guy and that he doesn't mind me disturbing him.


And, he's not pissed at me.


And, I caught him looking at me yesterday so aren't all of those good signs?


I mean, like when I knew that Roy was interested in me, I didn't try to catch a glimpse of him at school.


Well, I did look at him sometimes but only cause I wondered why he was interested in me.


The main point here is that I did not try to look at him the way that Law tried to look at me.


Recently, I told one of my high school friends, Lilia, about Law and she asked me to ask him out which is certainly an extremely daring move. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.


She said that he also kind of seemed interested in me and I can only keep hoping that that's true.


Anyway, the actual point of me blogging today is that I made a complete fool of myself today early in the morning and Law wasn't even there physically but I still blushed.


I was telling a couple of my friends that I took a picture with him and that June uploaded it on Facebook when one of them had the bright idea to use her iphone to log into Facebook to check it out and then I completely over-reacted and I have no idea why.


Roy was in the next table and he kept on glancing our way probably cause I was too loud. The other kids at that table were also looking my way.


I have a feeling that this will spread.


All my friends wanted to like it but I forbade them so they settled to bully me until June arrived.


I felt really happy though that they said we looked cute together cause we both looked like anime characters.


One of them even said we looked alike and that we had the same smile.


When I looked at the picture just now for a long time, I finally managed to admit that it looks pretty decent and quite good.


He looks really calm although there is a slight hint of awkwardness in his eyes.


I asked June what she thought of his conversation with me (cause she was there throughout that whole time) and she said that she was only looking at him to see his reaction.


She said that he was just smiling the whole time and his eyes were big.


I knew I wasn't imagining it when I said his eyes looked bigger than usual.


Ariel said that it was okay that I touched his shoulder cause then it made me look less like I'm afraid of him.


Come to think of it, I don't think I'm afraid of him anymore. I just really like him and I really want to be his friend.


Lilia suggested that I only text him after a week and I think that that's a good idea.


Anyway, I have to sleep cause I have a Chemistry pop quiz tomorrow.


I hope that Law and I will become closer. :)

This is a risk

Well, today was a very gossip filled day.


During lectures, I always sit next to June and another friend, Allie, and today, Allie told me a whole lot of gossip.


She said that she used to like a guy but then she lost interest in him but before that interest disappeared, a lot of people questioned her whether or not she liked him, including one of that guy's guy friend.


It's probably cause I was completely fixated on Law but I was completely oblivious to the fact that she liked this guy.


And I sit right next to her for heaven's sake!


I kind of knew she liked someone but I never figured out who.


But the main point here is that if her crush for the guy was so not obvious and people found out by themselves, what about my feelings for Law?


I didn't realise it but when Jean pointed it out to me during first break, I finally realised that Law must already know that I like him cause I am so obvious and rumours do get around very fast in school.


But still, he doesn't seem to mind it.


And I kind of think that he's interested... In me.


I was talking to Jean, Elva and Sasha about this topic (Law was sitting in front of me at 11 o'clock) and I couldn't help it. I started going crazy.


I always get crazy when I'm in front of him and when I get super nervous.


So I decided to go back up before he did (but he left before me anyway) but I had to see Angel to collect money for the party.


I thought that he'd be long gone by then so that I wouldn't bump into him.


But then, I saw him standing at the main stairs, looking at a bulletin board that was posted up so that anyone can write "Good Luck!" to our seniors and friends who'll be leaving this year.


He got only one post-it so far.


I passed by him with my head down and with hurried steps.


During the second break, I got held up in class a bit and I got really crazy then cause I really wanted to see him and not waste anymore time so by the time I came down, I was slightly disoriented.


I saw that Law was sitting at the table which was in front of the table I sat in during the first break so I picked a table that was a table away to his left before I went to find Helen, June and Elva.


The four of us just chatted and talked about random stuff and one by one, people left the cafeteria but he was still hanging around there.


I wonder if it's just in his nature to just stay back in the cafeteria so late or if there's some other reason.


He got up to leave before we did though cause we were busy laughing over food and how we trooped off to the counter to find it and buy it.


Then, Helen told me the Chuck Norris joke.

Helen: Beth! Listen to this Chuck Norris joke! It's so disgusting! (She was Twiting)

Me: Okay, what is it?

Helen: When Chuck Norris died, his sperm was preserved and made into a liquid now known as Red Bull.

Me: EWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!

And at that exact same moment that I said "EWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!", Law passed by me and turned to look at me and I could've given him a reaction or something (cause he looked so shock) but I pretended to be so absorbed into Helen's joke.

Stupid fool.

Why am I like that?!

I had to go to his lecture hall again to collect money (and I must do that again tomorrow) and he was busy talking to his friends so I didn't even bother to do anything to try to get his attention.

A senior caught a glimpse of my white book filled with post-its about Law but then I grabbed them away from him.

Earlier on, I also asked Blair if she saw any folded up paper and she said no. Where are they???!!

A lot of people saw my white book already. =-=;

But I am done and am tired of waiting.

If he's not going to do anything, then I will.

I'm going to write him a post-it and stick it onto the bulletin before he comes to school tomorrow cause there' a bigger probability that he'll check it tomorrow instead of Friday (which was the day that I initially planned to do it).

Better sooner then later right? Cause I might regret not doing it at all.

And besides, I got a good prediction for that.

Apparently if I write him a post-it, he'll give a good reaction to it, according to my prediction.

Ten of Cups - Fulfillment. Satisfaction. Completion of a happy cycle and a good ending. Deep connection with family, friends and community. Celebration that goal has been reached. Enjoy this moment for you have worked hard for it. Get-togethers and parties. Let go of your burdens and the time to carry them is finished. You have found the love you have searched for. Retirement.

Okay, now I'm going to write it and hopefully, something good will happen.

:)

PS. Really loving CNBLUE's EAR FUN album. All the songs are really awesome! I especially like Dream Boy the most somehow. :)

It's just a feeling

First of all, I'm currently eating HobNobs, one of my all-time favourite brand for biscuits.

HOBNOBS!!!

Just a short note: I don't own any of the pictures that I've posted up in my blog. They belong to their rightful copyright holders.

HobNobs are just so freaking good and delicious and I'm eating quite a lot cause Lent is in two days and then I'll have to fast since I'm 18 already.

I'm going to fast seriously and abstain from going online a lot.

But, as always, the main focus here is about Law.

I couldn't see him during the first break because I had to go to an Election Board meeting and directly after that, I had to go to our Public Speaking club meeting.

Towards the end of the first break, though, I saw that he came into the assembly hall where we were having our meeting and when the bell rang, I wanted to walk behind him as we went to class but I held of the urge for a few seconds to get some space between us.

When we were about to reach the top floor, he suddenly turned around and went downstairs and naturally I gave him some space to pass by.

End of the first break encounter.

During the second break, I went to the cafeteria and sat next to June and one of June's classmates cause I must learn to be friendly and learn how to initiate a conversation. Then, I went to buy lunch.

As I sat down, I noticed that Law was going to pass by our table on my side but of course I didn't dare to look at him.

June, on the other hand, just continued to stare at him as he was in her line of vision but I didn't want to turn around and take a peek.

And so, I just thought that our break today would go on pretty normal and everything but then Jean just had to start a commotion.

She was sitting at the table beside our table when she called out to me.

Jean: Hey Beth (that's me :)), I think you'd enjoy the view if you sat right here next to me. [She could see him in her line of vision]

Me: No thanks. I think I'd prefer if I just enjoyed the view over this side better for today.

Jean: That's not what I mean!

Well, she didn't say that but you could tell that's what she meant from her facial expression.

Cause the next thing I knew, she pointed directly at him.

She. Pointed. At. Him. In. A. Crowded. Cafeteria. With. A. Lot. Of. People.

And then something came over me and I just stood up, screamed yelled, and was about to go to her table but then I noticed people were looking so I calmed myself down and sat back in my place.

Then, June told me that when I stood up, Law looked at me.

Crap. Crap. Crap.

Now he must think I'm some kind of psycho lunatic.

Then, he switched places and went to sit in a place where it was in my line of vision and I did my best to not look at him.

June said he was smiling and looked in my direction when he stood up to leave at the end of the break but I can't really take her word for it. It could have been a trick of the light for all she knows.

But why did he switch his seat?

I bumped into him again on my way to my practical session but I didn't (or couldn't) look at him cause I was carrying a truckload of things and I needed to watch my step.

Well, that's about it for today.

But now that I think about it, didn't my love prediction yesterday mention something like this?

"Your admirer will approach you."

Anyway, I got more amusing predictions and tarot readings (not the real ones, mind you) for my day today (which is  Tuesday).

First, "Your admirer will react well to your sense of humor and kindness next time you meet".

Indeed, very funny.

Second, "The World - Completion (Inversus) The two of you should seriously communicate with each other. Do not cause each other pain. You are rewarded from your effort, but you have forgotten how to sustain of his (her), so that he (she) will stay with you."

Yes, we should communicate with each other but as far as I know, I'm the only one who wants to.

Third, "Communication is always a two way street and involves both speaking from a place of truth and authenticity, but also involves listening. While you've had the resources for several weeks now to not only open the communication lines but to take this to a whole new level, today's New Moon asks that you make a commitment and that you take responsibility. You're the one with the advantage, so it may mean that you're the one that needs to reach out."

Why is it that all of the readings are referring to the word "communication"?

Well, if I do get the chance to talk with him, I wouldn't know how to start a conversation with him but I do know for sure, I won't let go of the opportunity.

I won't, ever again.

Okay, I need to sleep now soon.

PS. I properly stalked Law yesterday on Facebook XD and I don't know if I mentioned this before but, he is single! :D

At least I know that I have a chance.

Undecided

Today, I humiliated myself in front of the entire cafeteria.


So let me rewind back to the beginning.


I told my friends in the morning about what happened between Law and I yesterday and then I left.


During the first break, when I sat down next to them, all of them went like "Guess who's sitting near us?"


I did know. I could recognize his back from across a hall but I did my best to not look at him too much unlike my friends.


Then, after he left, I suggested that all of us should go back to class so Jean decided to walk with me.


When we got to the stairs, Law was standing near the further staircase so I took the one nearer to where I was standing but Jean just had to start dragging me to the other side and I panicked.


I panicked and dragged her back too the cafeteria.


And I screamed shrieked.


I bet he noticed that.


And suddenly all my friends (the ones who knows about Law) appeared out of nowhere and began teasing me because Law was buying food and they kept on asking me to go and buy food too.


But after that when I started my duty, he was neutral with me like he didn't notice the commotion which is good.


We worked together during the cleaning up time and were quite near each other but that's about it.


After that when we went back to the hall, we had to clean up more stuff and be briefed and he sat quite near to me. :)


Then, we had to take down more newspapers and because I wanted to, I punched through one of the newspaper sheets and I was about to punch another side when he went "Wait wait wait! I want to punch too!" and then he punched the side I wanted to punch.


He grinned so taking all of my friends advice, I grinned and giggled. 


Ugh. =-=;


But at least that was something.


I'm doing my best to practice talking with my seniors especially guy ones.


But, why did Law have to come up to me?


I'm pretty sure there were ones that were closer to him.


I didn't get to work with after that and even though I planned to stay back a bit late to do my homework and maybe get the chance to talk with him, I didn't.


It was because my driver came way too early.


I told my friends that morning that I'd get the courage to talk with him but I never did.


Now they're going to help me although I don't know how. XD


But for the last bit of today, I felt really sad cause I couldn't get the chance to talk to him.


But on a good side, I still have the chance to work with him next week! :)


I got nominated for the Graduation Chairperson post in the Student Council.


I am really shocked. Really.


Maybe I'll be able to get closer to Law in this way???


Anyway, I have to sleep now even though my hair isn't dry yet in the least.


I need to prepare myself for the interview tomorrow and even though I think I'm prepared, I'll just run through my self-introduction speech and a couple of Q&A they might ask me tomorrow on my way to school tomorrow.


I hope that I'll be able to get closer to him.

So just pull the trigger

I don't know if it's cause I'm just too exhausted or I'm tired of waiting for something to happen but I just shot myself in the head.


Because, I just pressed the "add as friend" button on Facebook.


I am really screaming inside right now because somehow, I felt feel kind of stupid for doing that.


I mean, I actually did some prior practice (like adding other seniors) before I added Law but it doesn't feel the same.


I added him cause we've already sent each other a few texts back and forth even though it's only regarding school matters and we do know each other already and we have worked with each other.


So I'll just type down what happened at school today before I go off to sleep.


I was supposed to meet him during the first break but I used up the first half of the break celebrating my friend's birthday after which I texted him and asked him where I could find him.


By the time the bell rang, he didn't reply so I just texted him saying it's okay and I asked if I could pass the papers to him during the second break when we had our Election Board meeting and he said it was okay. He said sorry also cause he had his phone on silent.


I was really tempted to reply him but then I didn't want to look stupid so I just left it like that.


But then, I didn't pass it to him during the meeting because he went out as soon as the meeting finished so I passed it to Angel instead and she was really nice and all. :) Thank goodness.


We had our rehearsal for the campaign tomorrow after school and at first I was slightly disappointed that I couldn't see him but then when I went down, I saw him at the assembly area so I felt slightly happy that I got to see him.


He had to stayback a bit with some friends to talk about the campaign tomorrow.


Throughout that time, I just sat down and tried to finish doing our house's banner which I think I can finish drawing by this Friday, hopefully. :)


I saw him looking in my direction once for quite some time but I will not think too much about it cause it could have been a coincidence.


He went home quite late today and while I was talking with another senior, he had to wait for our conversation to finish cause he was sending the senior back home.


I kind of feel this weird atmosphere between us.


I think it's cause he knows I'm interested in him and he doesn't know what to do.


I feel stupid for adding him.


What if he doesn't accept it????!!! =-=;


I don't want to stress too much over this small thing and I need to concentrate more on my studies and other duties.


Tomorrow's Valentine's Day in case you guys forgot.


I'm truthfully a little excited since this is the first time in 12 years that I've attended a co-ed school and I wonder how it'll be like tomorrow.


I'm quite certain some of my friends will get a couple of confessions cause they're all so pretty and nice. :)


As for me, I'm definitely not going to confess unless something stupid overpowers me and then I'll know I'll regret my future words and actions in the future.


Okay, I've got to go to sleep now.

I'm supposed to be very busy now

But I really need to get certain things off my chest.


Really. =-=;


I'm so freaking disturbed and distracted now I can't concentrate in class cause half the time I'm looking at the slideshow, my mind is over-working itself by thinking and "rationalising" certain events to the point that I can make myself feel depressed.


Seriously.


I found out last Monday from a friend that on the night I told my dorm mates that I liked Law, Law's friend was right outside the door.


No wonder they were all looking at me the next morning.


I bet, I really really really bet, that every single human knows already.


Especially him.


Like this morning, when I was coming out from the room where we have our morning prayer, one of my seniors smiled at me.


And that's a first kind of thing you know.


I wasn't even sure how I was supposed to react to that but I just smiled back.


You see? My mind just over-thought that situation out.


Again.


Anyway, Law's friend (*Angel), added me on Facebook last Monday.


And I did accept it since she is a very prominent figure in school and I even wrote thanks on her wall which I really really really hope doesn't look pathetic or anything!!!!


When I told my siblings they all immediately said, "Now she's going to stalk you cause she knows!!!!"


I am so freaking scared.


And I don't even know why.


I mean, it's okay to like someone right? It's our own freedom to like someone.


Today during the Election Board meeting, I made a fool of myself again especially with me being sick and all.


I did my best to be normal and not stare at him all the time and when I did, I only stared at him at the appropriate time and for an appropriate duration of time.


Funny thing is... it's like they were holding some kind of secret.


Like when I walked in, they were holding back a laugh like I was a fool or something.


Like they all knew.


And there I go again, getting paranoid over the smallest detail.


What can I say, it runs very strongly in my family's blood.


Especially my mom and she and I have the same blood type so I bet I have a serious case of paranoia.


I wish wish wish I could just give up on him but then again, I want to see what will happen if I just stuck on.


Well, I did stick on didn't I? And look at where I am now. He's one of the seniors that I do communicate with, well, kind of. :) (Edited on the 7th of April 2012)


A broken heart can be nursed back so what I should do is take a risk.


But I've never been much of a risk taker either.


I don't think he's really a cold and scary person. People just need to get to know him before they say anything.


I feel like I have some  things in common with him and even if we never have that kind of relationship, I just know that he will be a really awesome friend to have. :)


Valentine's Day is coming up and I'm planning to bake cookies for my friends cause I'm too chicken to give it to him.


I like spoiling my friends too at every chance that I can get. :)


I hope that I won't turn into an attention seeker.


Please no.

Really, the best camp I've been to, yet

So, I'll just try to recall back all the memories I had made and collected (especially regarding Law) the past 3 days and 2 nights I was away at Leadership Camp. :)


We'll go through all the events chronologically.


Day 1
As soon as school finished in the afternoon, I couldn't wait to go down and hop on the bus to go to Leadership Camp but naturally, I didn't act like some fool.


Okay, maybe I did.


When I got down, I had no idea what to do with my school bag (and my seniors had told me previously to not get confused =-=;) and so I went to ask one of the seniors what to do with it and he asked me to wait. Law was right next to him but of course I did my best to not look at him.


Although... he was still in my panorama of vision.


When I registered my school bag, he helped to carry it. 


That was part of his job of course, nothing special there.


And then I went to get ready at my station but since my bus was to be the last one to leave, our team was slightly too early so I went to help carry the bags instead.


At first, Law wasn't helping but then he eventually came by and helped out as well but I couldn't spend too much time helping him with the bags cause I had to return to my station.


My job was to hand out the booklets and tags for the camp and I hoped I'd get his tag but I didn't and if I did change my part of the booklets and tags with the other person, it'd be obvious so I decided to do my best to not try to get into anything that had something to do with him.


Sadly, even though I prayed, I didn't get to be in the same group as him.


In a way, that was good cause then if that had happened, he'd just think of me as someone under his wing so I used that to cheer up myself.


He sat at the back of the bus with the other seniors and I'm thankful I didn't turn my head a lot just to look at him.


When we reached camp, we helped out a bit and then we were given a basic briefing before we unpacked in our dorms.


Luckily, everyone in my dorm is nice and we all got along very well. :)


We had dinner after we bathed and all the Election Board juniors had to help serve the participants, buffet style, and I kept hoping that I'd get to serve Law but I never did. 


Throughout the camp. :(


Then we had our ice breaking game which had really unexpected but fun games. :)


We also had to do our cheer which had us pointing at the crowd and I kept on pointing subconsciously at him.


Idiot.


There was a workshop after that but since the Election Board didn't have a session for this workshop, we sat in a circle and discussed stuff and some of the seniors shared their stories with us.


There was a part when I suggested something that one of the seniors asked me to get permission for it from a lecturer and I kept on turning front and back because I didn't know how to put my questions into words and all that time, Law was there and I bet he thought I was stupid or something somewhere along those lines.


I was really active in asking questions during one particular session and I hope that no one felt annoyed with me. 


I don't want to annoy anyone.


And then we all went back to our dorms where we told ghost stories until 12.30 am and then we went to sleep.


Day 2
I woke up super early to bath and then we all went down to have our morning exercise.


I noticed that he looked at me, or maybe he just happened to look in my direction.


I helped out again at breakfast and I just caught glimpses of him every now and then.


We had more activities after that but I'm not in the mood to write about them cause my team had this kind of tense, black cloud hanging around.


All that I can say is that I kept on looking at him which was not supposed to happen.


70% - 90% of the time, he was on my mind.


During the photo session, I felt slightly sad that I was slightly shorter than my other friend (cause she was wearing shoes with thick soles and that made her taller than me!) but that was really a blessing in disguise cause I got to stand on Law's side.


I noticed that he is most definitely taller than me.


I couldn't estimate his height from a distance so I always thought that he was shorter than me but he isn't!


He is probably around 5-7 cm taller than me at least.


I never noticed that until he stood (not exactly) in front of me.


After that, we played a game kind of like a dating sim game except that it was more of a surviving game for a group of people than getting to score with some girl or something like that.


It was the best activity held during the camp, and I'm not saying this just because Law was one of those who held an important job in making it happen.


There was a part after we stopped playing it that Law said that the inspiration came from Battlestar Galactica and somehow, that name seemed familiar so I clapped my hands loudly while there were only a few other claps from other people.


And those other people were only guys.


No other girl was clapping.


You know why?



Battlestar Galactica is a sci-fi series which has been turned into video games and it is also a board game.


It seemed familiar to me but I didn't know why until I realised I heard about it and saw it from The Big Bang Theory which Law watches.



This really shows how feminine I am right?


But then when I clapped my hands, I noticed that he grinned at me but then again, that was only a quick glimpse because I didn't want to stare at him for too long cause I wouldn't know if I had to smile back or not.


Thinking back now (today is the 4th of March 2012) I should have. =-=;


I noticed that after that, while our group was practicing for talent night, he kept on passing us by with some friends and he even sat close to where we were practicing. But I'm sure those were all just lucky coincidences.


Our group went to have dinner after that and then we bathed and then everyone reassembled back at the main hall.


One of my friends called me "pretty" and honestly I felt a bit happy because then, maybe, Law would think I'm pretty.


But then again, I know I'm not pretty so I asked her to stop complimenting me and tried to change the subject by calling her pretty also.


Everyone then put on their performance according to what their given challenge was and some were really funny but others were a bit awkward.


Our group performed towards the end which was the second last slot.


We did a skit whereby a student made it into the Student Council but at the same time he got a scholarship so in the end he had to choose between the two.


But we got him to get both in the skit. :)


I was one of the Student Council interviewers and I was really nervous for two reasons.


A] It was only my second time acting in front of a really huge crowd (I can be usually found backstage with all the PA system and props making and stuff).


B] Law was paying attention to our skit.


Previously, he didn't really pay much attention to the other skit but then I noticed (as soon as I sat down in my place on stage) that he was paying attention.


He was sitting right across me and he wasn't part of the audience so in a way, I didn't have to pay much attention to him.


I almost messed up my lines halfway through though cause I caught him looking at me in an amused way cause I was kind of parody-ing him when he was interviewing the Student Council candidates and I think he knows that I was parody-ing him.


After we finished, we got a tremendous applause from the audience and I was a bit shocked really.


Even though there was a part that I embarrassed myself, someone told me that the seniors liked it cause they imitated me and even one of the seniors gave me a compliment after that.


I feel a bit pleased cause I knew that at least I'm not that bad at acting or anything like that.


We had a sing along after that and I noticed that as usual, whenever something very active comes up, Law just excused himself from the crowd and watched all of us being crazy (me screaming at the top of my lungs).


That doesn't mean he has bad showmanship though. 


He danced the banana dance twice on the first day and when his group had to do their cheer, he really put a lot of effort into it.


He made a really cute face. XD


I didn't get to serve him that night during dinner as well so yeah. :(


However, during supper while I was eating my instant noodles, he sat right across from me , two tables away and somehow my intuition tells me that he intentionally did that.


I did caught him staring at me.


And I'm sure that I'm not dreaming cause for a very short instant (maybe one nanosecond) we caught each other's stare but then I looked away.


I should stop that and the next time we happen to make eye contact, I will look back and give him a smile. (Edited on the 4th of March 2012).


That night, I told my entire dorm mates that I liked Law.


And I just met them.


Somehow, I really needed to get that of my chest.


Partly cause there was a part when I fell asleep for a short while during our talk and then when I woke up, they were talking about him and saying that he was cute and that they thought he was a girl the first time they saw him.


I just, you know, wanted them to know that I liked him.


I hope that they are trustworthy people but I know, the more people you tell, the sooner it will spread cause girls gossip a lot.


We stayed up till 2 am and by that time I knew everyone better and I also knew that I was the only one that had a crush on someone. No one else felt anything.


Day 3
When I woke up today, I went to bath and something made me want to bring my clothes to change inside the bathroom instead of in my dorm which was what I usually did.


When I came out, a whole bunch of seniors were right outside and Law was there with them.


My brain was processing too slowly so I didn't say anything but I knew they were all looking at me as I went inside my dorm which was very near to the public bathroom.


After a rigorous exercise and packing up, we had another activity but it was really boring.


We had breakfast after that and when I wanted to get bread for breakfast, Law was at that station and as soon as I was about to receive my slice from another senior, Law suddenly asked for "tweezers" for the bread so that he could help out.


I think he meant tongs. XD


There was another part shortly after that when I asked the seniors where all the Milo went to and then they all said that it finished and Law was also looking at me when I was asking but I didn't dare look at him.


We had more games after that but all I can say is that Law was still on my mind.


At the end of the day, after all the photo taking and all, I found out that we weren't going to be on the same bus back to school so I felt a bit disappointed but I knew he was staying behind to help with the cleaning up.


He's really a nice guy. He always stays behind to help with whatever cleaning up there is to be done like the clean-up of the unofficial Election Board room last Friday. (Edited on the 4th of March 2012)


I caught a glimpse of him again before we pulled away from the place but then I didn't want him to see me looking at him so I decided to busy myself in putting my headphones on.


Anyway, cutting out a lot of events, I was still waiting for my car when he arrived with other seniors and then he dumped his bag kind of near to where I was sitting.


Thinking about it now, why did he do that?


I mean, after that, he changed his bag's location to the outside part but he could have done that from the start, right?


But of course, it might have been another coincidence.


There was a part while I was busy doing homework when one of the seniors came over to us and talked a bit to us and he looked like he wanted to join in or something like that but then he went away.


He went home before I did.




Throughout camp, I kept on bumping into him and catching glimpses of him and I don't know if it's because of certain details other than maybe, fate?


I noticed that towards the end of camp, we were kind of approaching each other nearer and nearer whenever we walked past by each other.


The "approaching nearer and nearer" thing kind of got more frequent after that especially around the time when we had to prepare for upcoming events or when it was time to clean up.


But only when it seems as though there aren't that many people around us cause whenever there are people around us, we tend to make space between us. (Edited on the 4th of March 2012)


Is it only me who's noticing all of this?


Maybe I'm just thinking this way because I only focus my attention on him but then again, I don't remember always seeing anyone else as frequently as I saw him whenever we pass each other by.




There was a part during one of the workshops where the speaker said we are more attracted to things that are more similar to us.


I think that's kind of true.


He reminds me of myself sometimes throughout the camp and I kept on comparing those sides of him with my sides and they were almost similar.


I won't go into detail cause then it'd take me another hour to type it down and I've already spent an hour and thirty minutes writing up till this part.




I think I like him because he really is an attractive person not only appearance-wise but much more because of his personality.


I hope we'll get to work together again.


I hope this connection that I think is forming between us won't fade or disappear.




And because this is a very long post, I won't be able to make it very pretty but still, I'm doing the effort to make it look presentable and not boring. :)


And now that I re-read this and made it slightly less monotonous, I think I should make all my future posts a little less colourful as well. (Edited on the 4th of March 2012)


Going to sleep soon.