For sure, it wasn't a dream.

He replied to my SMS last night.


Yes, I am still a bit in shock.


"Oh no, don't fret bout it. Thanks for asking."


I can analyse his words in many ways but the main point here is that he doesn't hate me.


Also, he cares enough to send me back a reply even though it was sent 40 minutes after I pressed the "sent" button.


"No problem.  :) "


I took 10 minutes racking my brains, trying to find the perfect sentence to use to reply to his message and that was the safest bet even though I wanted to risk asking "What are you doing now?" but that might have been a bit too much.


Today, I saw him during both of the breaks even though I didn't really expect to see him.


That was cause during the first break, I had to go for a mini Public Speaking Club meeting about what we were going to do for the club meeting tomorrow.


We were about to finish when I happened to glance to my right and then I saw him.


Looking at me.


And then, I looked away immediately.


I noticed that whenever I catch a glimpse of him looking at me, it's always me who looks away.


I won't do that anymore.


I'll just look back and give him a smile.


Continuing on, I turned to look in front and was about to read Catching Fire when Jean just pulled the book away and began reading it.


She's a bit rude, I know but that's just her being a kid.


So I started to holler at her cause she was literally running away with the book and I really wanted to read it so I kept blackmailing her with her handphone but in the end, I had to chase after her, screaming like a cow.


And almost throughout that time, Law was within earshot of the whole commotion.


In the end, I said to Jean, "Thank you for ruining my reputation in front of the entire school."


I'm pretty sure Law heard me say that because he was right behind me.


So I turned towards the staircase and started to go up even though the bell hasn't rung yet.


When I looked behind, I saw that Law and his friends were also coming up and I wanted to hasten my steps but instead, I began reading Catching Fire to slow me down a bit and I slowed down so much that Law almost caught up to me.


Then, when I was about to reach the top of the stairs, Ray called out to me and we began talking about the Election Board party and Law walked right pass by so I got a bit sad cause I had to keep the conversation going so I couldn't say "Hi" to him.


During the second break, I sat at our table first since I got out of class earlier. Then, some friends came and sat with me before June came and sat with me.


When I looked up, I saw that Law was sitting in front of me, a table away.


My mind went "Hasn't this happened before?"


Even Sasha commented that I somehow always get "strategic places" but I chose those seats in the first place.


Okay, so maybe I know where he likes to sit most of the time but that doesn't mean he'll always sit somewhere near there.


My friends and I waited around a bit when the bell rang off and I noticed that his group did the same and they only left when we left.


Anyhow, I need to get going to sleep. :)


Night.


PS. Roy tried to sit near me today but I really showed him that I wasn't interested and I feel kind of mean for doing that but at least I'm not giving him hope or leading him on or anything like that.

Stuck

I really don't know what to do with my limited courage and unimpressive communication skills to get to talk to him.


Today, I thought he wasn't going to come to school but then June went and checked in his lecture hall and lo and behold, he was there.


She's got guts that girl.


Did I mention that she actually read this entire blog in one day the minute I gave her the link?


Thanks for reading this. And thank you so much for finding it interesting! :)


So about Law...


I felt like he purposely sat at a place where he was facing me during the first break.


Ray usually sits next to him and I noticed that when he was about to join Law, he gave me a look.


Most probably it's because I was sitting alone as all my other friends had to sit for their Malaysian Studies examination so they skipped the first break to study.


When that break was over and I placed my dishes into the basin, I went to the main stairs and started to go up slowly while reading the Star Wars book.


As I was going up the third flight of stairs, I heard one of my senior's voice from behind so I naturally went to the side to let him pass by but strangely enough, it took him quite some time to pass by.


When he did, he passed by with Law.


I bet I freaking looked like a nerd.


During the second break, June said that he smiled at her at the beginning of the break and I have no idea why.


He sat right in front of me with his back turned at the opposite table but I noticed that he kind of kept on turning his head to the back after turning to face his back once and throughout that time, he was smiling and grinning a lot.


Then, we had to leave early so I felt a bit sad.


I went after June to tell her that Helen and I had to go up first and after I told her, I turned around and I think I saw that Law was looking at me but I can't be too sure.


Now, I'm in a position where I don't know if I should still like him or not or make the first move or not.


Cause the sooner I delay this, the more depressed I'll get, the more crazier I'll become and then I might do something I might regret.


Prediction of the day: The Star - Hope (Orthotopic) You will encounter an ideal candidate and start of a sweet romance. Both of you are dedicated to the relationship. And at the same time, the friendship between you two will transform into the spirit of love.


Apparently, tomorrow will be a good day for me with Virgos (namely Law).


Let's hope it'll end up that way.

So cute!!!

I'm going to be sleeping early-ish and then I'm going to wake up early to study for my progress test tomorrow. :)


So, this will be another quick post.


I finally got to see Law today with his new haircut! XD


Early in the morning, June and I went down to the place where we usually gather for morning prayers when I saw him coming up the stairs 3 flights of stairs away.


Even if it was just a glimpse, I just knew it was him.


And so I did my best to not even think about him and I laughed and talked with June as we went down the stairs.


And then we met him as he was coming up the stairs with his friends.


And I couldn't help but look at him and at that same time, I think I had a goofy smile on my face or something but thankfully he didn't notice it I think cause he was talking with his friends and he gave them a huge grin.


During the first break, he sat behind me so I couldn't turn around to look at him.


During the second break, I saw him sitting with his friends and somehow, me and Helen ended up sitting in front of him within his line of vision.


Then, as they stood up to leave, so did the both of us and I saw that Law was on his way up.


But then, he suddenly made a U-turn around a pole and he had to squeeze past by me and I squeaked out "Sorry." like a fool.


But hey, I did what I said I'd do.


I smiled at him (even if he didn't see it) and I talked to him.


Okay, I spoke to him.


I should go and sleep now cause I'm pretty sure I know bits and pieces for Physics and Biology and it's all in my head and I just need a good nights rest.


Law really looks so cute with his new hairstyle.


It's almost like an elementary-style haircut and he reminds me of a basket of puppies. XD


And again, my "love prediction": An unexpected event will bring you closer to someone special.


Turns out in four days time, it'll be the start of three months of romance in my life and I'll need to balance that with my studies and all.


I hope that it refers to Law and I. :)


Okay, sleep time!

Undecided

Today, I humiliated myself in front of the entire cafeteria.


So let me rewind back to the beginning.


I told my friends in the morning about what happened between Law and I yesterday and then I left.


During the first break, when I sat down next to them, all of them went like "Guess who's sitting near us?"


I did know. I could recognize his back from across a hall but I did my best to not look at him too much unlike my friends.


Then, after he left, I suggested that all of us should go back to class so Jean decided to walk with me.


When we got to the stairs, Law was standing near the further staircase so I took the one nearer to where I was standing but Jean just had to start dragging me to the other side and I panicked.


I panicked and dragged her back too the cafeteria.


And I screamed shrieked.


I bet he noticed that.


And suddenly all my friends (the ones who knows about Law) appeared out of nowhere and began teasing me because Law was buying food and they kept on asking me to go and buy food too.


But after that when I started my duty, he was neutral with me like he didn't notice the commotion which is good.


We worked together during the cleaning up time and were quite near each other but that's about it.


After that when we went back to the hall, we had to clean up more stuff and be briefed and he sat quite near to me. :)


Then, we had to take down more newspapers and because I wanted to, I punched through one of the newspaper sheets and I was about to punch another side when he went "Wait wait wait! I want to punch too!" and then he punched the side I wanted to punch.


He grinned so taking all of my friends advice, I grinned and giggled. 


Ugh. =-=;


But at least that was something.


I'm doing my best to practice talking with my seniors especially guy ones.


But, why did Law have to come up to me?


I'm pretty sure there were ones that were closer to him.


I didn't get to work with after that and even though I planned to stay back a bit late to do my homework and maybe get the chance to talk with him, I didn't.


It was because my driver came way too early.


I told my friends that morning that I'd get the courage to talk with him but I never did.


Now they're going to help me although I don't know how. XD


But for the last bit of today, I felt really sad cause I couldn't get the chance to talk to him.


But on a good side, I still have the chance to work with him next week! :)


I got nominated for the Graduation Chairperson post in the Student Council.


I am really shocked. Really.


Maybe I'll be able to get closer to Law in this way???


Anyway, I have to sleep now even though my hair isn't dry yet in the least.


I need to prepare myself for the interview tomorrow and even though I think I'm prepared, I'll just run through my self-introduction speech and a couple of Q&A they might ask me tomorrow on my way to school tomorrow.


I hope that I'll be able to get closer to him.

I don't understand myself sometimes

So first I'll just tell a bit about what happened to myself in general before I go on to talking about Law.


I was asked by one of my seniors if I was interested in becoming the Graduation Chairperson and I really didn't expect  that I'd get asked with that question.


My heart skipped a beat and I felt like I was lightheaded but I managed to calm down and asked if I could confirm with him tomorrow cause my parents aren't really that excited about me being very involved in extra-curricular activities.


But, I managed to convince them just now and now because of that, I feel like I need to study even harder for my parents so that I'll get good results for my A-Levels.


I will not disappoint them.


Okay, now about Law. :)


I didn't get to see him during the Fixed Campaign but during the Election Board meeting I saw him for a bit but of course I did my best to not stare at him.


When I got back to the lecture hall, for some unknown reason, my group mates were discussing about him and I wanted to join in but I just knew I'd end up embarrassing myself so I didn't.


I told one of my newly made friends that I liked Law and she said that she knew another person who admired him but according to her "My friend only thinks he's pretty and cute. XD"


=-=;


A lot of people say he's pretty but I don't think so.


He's hot.


Reminds me, I finally told Elva that I liked Law.


I got around to telling her cause she said she was interested in some people also. Law included.


But, she said that she only admired him and that it's obvious that what I'm feeling for Law is more deeper than her interest in him.


And then when she asked me why I liked him, I couldn't really point out any reason.


I mean, I know why I like him but I can't express them using words.


So I ended up saying "Because.... he's hot."


And then I screamed the place down cause I've never ever ever called any real guy that I liked "hot". X|


Okay, back to Law now.


I kind of expected that he wouldn't stayback today because he didn't yesterday but he did and I was quite happy that I'd get to work with him because tomorrow, I won't be able to work with him at all.


That part got me down a bit but then I just told myself to be patient.


Anyway, we started to carry tables to and fro different halls and there was one part where I was waiting for people to enter the hall before I could exit the hall whilst I carried two tables when Law suddenly said "Let the people carrying the tables pass through first."


At least he was kind enough to help me. :)


After that, I tried to keep my distance away from him so as to not distract myself too much but I noticed that while he was distributing stationary, he approached my station first before he gradually went away.


And then, when our leader asked some people to go to the other hall to help with the preparation, I went ahead and I didn't expect that he'd come as well.


He was with some friends and they were all joking with each other and laughing their heads off and I couldn't join them as much as I wanted to so I started to do my work.


I was alone at first but then one of the seniors came over to help me so I practiced talking to people older than me   and I'm happy  to say that our conversation went quite well although slightly awkward. At least both of us tried to keep the conversation alive. :)


When we were "finished", they began joking over the newspaper articles and there was one part when he came over to where I was and I think that he was "talking" to me (or rather, the other guys around us) and he said "A youth group? You mean like a church thing?" and then it got slightly silent and I was about to say something but then that moment passed.


There was one part when we were about to clean up and I was picking up newspapers that I think that he noticed me doing the tidying up.


He said something like "You okay? Do you need help-?" and he was about to come over and help me when one of my peers stepped in to help me. =-=;


SO CLOSE.


Another part was when I was beginning to wrap more tables and initially I was alone but then one of my seniors came over to help me and I noticed that Law also wanted to help but he hovered around awkwardly before going back to sit down.


WHY THE HELL DIDN'T I INVITE HIM???!!!!!!!


I regret that part A LOT.


After that, I just tried to act normally and talked with the other senior and I noticed that Law was always quite close by.


But there was one occasion when we almost bumped into each other and for some unknown reason, I felt a tense atmosphere between the both of us.


He used a different car today. I think it's his dad's one. All my seniors and him went to eat dinner together after that.  =-=;  So lucky!


Am I thinking too much?


Were all of those events just coincidences?


I really really really hope that I'll at least get to talk to him for a bit tomorrow cause tomorrow is kind of like my last chance to ever work with him in any way.


I MUST NOT HOLD BACK AND JUST GO FOR IT.


If not, who knows when my next chance will be?


I remember when Elva asked me how much I liked him (before she found out who Law was) I answered "I like him so much that if I don't see him at all for one day at school, I'll get really depressed."


As sappy as that sounds like, it's true.


Please please please let tomorrow be magical and miraculous for the both of us.

So just pull the trigger

I don't know if it's cause I'm just too exhausted or I'm tired of waiting for something to happen but I just shot myself in the head.


Because, I just pressed the "add as friend" button on Facebook.


I am really screaming inside right now because somehow, I felt feel kind of stupid for doing that.


I mean, I actually did some prior practice (like adding other seniors) before I added Law but it doesn't feel the same.


I added him cause we've already sent each other a few texts back and forth even though it's only regarding school matters and we do know each other already and we have worked with each other.


So I'll just type down what happened at school today before I go off to sleep.


I was supposed to meet him during the first break but I used up the first half of the break celebrating my friend's birthday after which I texted him and asked him where I could find him.


By the time the bell rang, he didn't reply so I just texted him saying it's okay and I asked if I could pass the papers to him during the second break when we had our Election Board meeting and he said it was okay. He said sorry also cause he had his phone on silent.


I was really tempted to reply him but then I didn't want to look stupid so I just left it like that.


But then, I didn't pass it to him during the meeting because he went out as soon as the meeting finished so I passed it to Angel instead and she was really nice and all. :) Thank goodness.


We had our rehearsal for the campaign tomorrow after school and at first I was slightly disappointed that I couldn't see him but then when I went down, I saw him at the assembly area so I felt slightly happy that I got to see him.


He had to stayback a bit with some friends to talk about the campaign tomorrow.


Throughout that time, I just sat down and tried to finish doing our house's banner which I think I can finish drawing by this Friday, hopefully. :)


I saw him looking in my direction once for quite some time but I will not think too much about it cause it could have been a coincidence.


He went home quite late today and while I was talking with another senior, he had to wait for our conversation to finish cause he was sending the senior back home.


I kind of feel this weird atmosphere between us.


I think it's cause he knows I'm interested in him and he doesn't know what to do.


I feel stupid for adding him.


What if he doesn't accept it????!!! =-=;


I don't want to stress too much over this small thing and I need to concentrate more on my studies and other duties.


Tomorrow's Valentine's Day in case you guys forgot.


I'm truthfully a little excited since this is the first time in 12 years that I've attended a co-ed school and I wonder how it'll be like tomorrow.


I'm quite certain some of my friends will get a couple of confessions cause they're all so pretty and nice. :)


As for me, I'm definitely not going to confess unless something stupid overpowers me and then I'll know I'll regret my future words and actions in the future.


Okay, I've got to go to sleep now.

Over the moon and then down in the dumps

Today our school held a talent show with the objective to showcase our students and lecturers talents as well as to break the ice between the students even more.


Our group got 2nd place and honestly, I was a bit shocked cause we only really started to practice seriously last night.


And we only practiced for two hours. Really.


I kept glancing at Law who stood quite close by although I don't know why.


It's not like he'll suddenly look at me or anything.


Anyway...


Before I go on, I'll just write down a bit about what happened to me just a few seconds ago.


My mom was looking at me, typing away, when she asked me why I wasn't studying as hard as used to last time.


I can't blame her for wondering but honestly, doesn't she care about anything else other than me and my studies?


It's really good that she's expressing and stressing such great concern but I would like her to know that the only reason why I type things out in this blog is because I can't really tell anyone here how I honestly feel without any fear whatsoever.


One of the reasons why I attend all kinds of practice is to meet new people and who knows, I'll get to find "the friend".


Maybe she's feeling this way because she likes being a loner?


But then again, it's not like she's never experienced what I'm experiencing now.


I'm quite sure she went out a lot when she went to college.


I'm not going to dwell too much on this though cause this blog isn't supposed to be related to problems like this but I'm not  exactly in the mood to open up my other blog and type in there too.


Okay, back to the main point. :)


Law had to keep going back in and out cause he was on duty but his duty didn't require him to do much so he could basically do anything he liked.


Like when other people were performing and if he was bored, he just went out of the hall.


There were a couple of occasions where I bumped into him and it was slightly awkward I guess.


It's probably because of the text I sent him yesterday.


But when our group performed, he actually stayed to watch. :)


It's not like I was on stage or anything (I was working backstage) but knowing that he stayed to watch our group made me feel slightly excited.


At times, I felt like he purposely stood in places so that I could look at him.


But then again, it's just my thoughts.


I will do my club work tomorrow and now I must go study so that my mom won't be so worried about me academically.


Amazing how I can feel so high up and happy one day and then get all down and soggy the next.


I must stick to my new year resolutions.

Really, the best camp I've been to, yet

So, I'll just try to recall back all the memories I had made and collected (especially regarding Law) the past 3 days and 2 nights I was away at Leadership Camp. :)


We'll go through all the events chronologically.


Day 1
As soon as school finished in the afternoon, I couldn't wait to go down and hop on the bus to go to Leadership Camp but naturally, I didn't act like some fool.


Okay, maybe I did.


When I got down, I had no idea what to do with my school bag (and my seniors had told me previously to not get confused =-=;) and so I went to ask one of the seniors what to do with it and he asked me to wait. Law was right next to him but of course I did my best to not look at him.


Although... he was still in my panorama of vision.


When I registered my school bag, he helped to carry it. 


That was part of his job of course, nothing special there.


And then I went to get ready at my station but since my bus was to be the last one to leave, our team was slightly too early so I went to help carry the bags instead.


At first, Law wasn't helping but then he eventually came by and helped out as well but I couldn't spend too much time helping him with the bags cause I had to return to my station.


My job was to hand out the booklets and tags for the camp and I hoped I'd get his tag but I didn't and if I did change my part of the booklets and tags with the other person, it'd be obvious so I decided to do my best to not try to get into anything that had something to do with him.


Sadly, even though I prayed, I didn't get to be in the same group as him.


In a way, that was good cause then if that had happened, he'd just think of me as someone under his wing so I used that to cheer up myself.


He sat at the back of the bus with the other seniors and I'm thankful I didn't turn my head a lot just to look at him.


When we reached camp, we helped out a bit and then we were given a basic briefing before we unpacked in our dorms.


Luckily, everyone in my dorm is nice and we all got along very well. :)


We had dinner after we bathed and all the Election Board juniors had to help serve the participants, buffet style, and I kept hoping that I'd get to serve Law but I never did. 


Throughout the camp. :(


Then we had our ice breaking game which had really unexpected but fun games. :)


We also had to do our cheer which had us pointing at the crowd and I kept on pointing subconsciously at him.


Idiot.


There was a workshop after that but since the Election Board didn't have a session for this workshop, we sat in a circle and discussed stuff and some of the seniors shared their stories with us.


There was a part when I suggested something that one of the seniors asked me to get permission for it from a lecturer and I kept on turning front and back because I didn't know how to put my questions into words and all that time, Law was there and I bet he thought I was stupid or something somewhere along those lines.


I was really active in asking questions during one particular session and I hope that no one felt annoyed with me. 


I don't want to annoy anyone.


And then we all went back to our dorms where we told ghost stories until 12.30 am and then we went to sleep.


Day 2
I woke up super early to bath and then we all went down to have our morning exercise.


I noticed that he looked at me, or maybe he just happened to look in my direction.


I helped out again at breakfast and I just caught glimpses of him every now and then.


We had more activities after that but I'm not in the mood to write about them cause my team had this kind of tense, black cloud hanging around.


All that I can say is that I kept on looking at him which was not supposed to happen.


70% - 90% of the time, he was on my mind.


During the photo session, I felt slightly sad that I was slightly shorter than my other friend (cause she was wearing shoes with thick soles and that made her taller than me!) but that was really a blessing in disguise cause I got to stand on Law's side.


I noticed that he is most definitely taller than me.


I couldn't estimate his height from a distance so I always thought that he was shorter than me but he isn't!


He is probably around 5-7 cm taller than me at least.


I never noticed that until he stood (not exactly) in front of me.


After that, we played a game kind of like a dating sim game except that it was more of a surviving game for a group of people than getting to score with some girl or something like that.


It was the best activity held during the camp, and I'm not saying this just because Law was one of those who held an important job in making it happen.


There was a part after we stopped playing it that Law said that the inspiration came from Battlestar Galactica and somehow, that name seemed familiar so I clapped my hands loudly while there were only a few other claps from other people.


And those other people were only guys.


No other girl was clapping.


You know why?



Battlestar Galactica is a sci-fi series which has been turned into video games and it is also a board game.


It seemed familiar to me but I didn't know why until I realised I heard about it and saw it from The Big Bang Theory which Law watches.



This really shows how feminine I am right?


But then when I clapped my hands, I noticed that he grinned at me but then again, that was only a quick glimpse because I didn't want to stare at him for too long cause I wouldn't know if I had to smile back or not.


Thinking back now (today is the 4th of March 2012) I should have. =-=;


I noticed that after that, while our group was practicing for talent night, he kept on passing us by with some friends and he even sat close to where we were practicing. But I'm sure those were all just lucky coincidences.


Our group went to have dinner after that and then we bathed and then everyone reassembled back at the main hall.


One of my friends called me "pretty" and honestly I felt a bit happy because then, maybe, Law would think I'm pretty.


But then again, I know I'm not pretty so I asked her to stop complimenting me and tried to change the subject by calling her pretty also.


Everyone then put on their performance according to what their given challenge was and some were really funny but others were a bit awkward.


Our group performed towards the end which was the second last slot.


We did a skit whereby a student made it into the Student Council but at the same time he got a scholarship so in the end he had to choose between the two.


But we got him to get both in the skit. :)


I was one of the Student Council interviewers and I was really nervous for two reasons.


A] It was only my second time acting in front of a really huge crowd (I can be usually found backstage with all the PA system and props making and stuff).


B] Law was paying attention to our skit.


Previously, he didn't really pay much attention to the other skit but then I noticed (as soon as I sat down in my place on stage) that he was paying attention.


He was sitting right across me and he wasn't part of the audience so in a way, I didn't have to pay much attention to him.


I almost messed up my lines halfway through though cause I caught him looking at me in an amused way cause I was kind of parody-ing him when he was interviewing the Student Council candidates and I think he knows that I was parody-ing him.


After we finished, we got a tremendous applause from the audience and I was a bit shocked really.


Even though there was a part that I embarrassed myself, someone told me that the seniors liked it cause they imitated me and even one of the seniors gave me a compliment after that.


I feel a bit pleased cause I knew that at least I'm not that bad at acting or anything like that.


We had a sing along after that and I noticed that as usual, whenever something very active comes up, Law just excused himself from the crowd and watched all of us being crazy (me screaming at the top of my lungs).


That doesn't mean he has bad showmanship though. 


He danced the banana dance twice on the first day and when his group had to do their cheer, he really put a lot of effort into it.


He made a really cute face. XD


I didn't get to serve him that night during dinner as well so yeah. :(


However, during supper while I was eating my instant noodles, he sat right across from me , two tables away and somehow my intuition tells me that he intentionally did that.


I did caught him staring at me.


And I'm sure that I'm not dreaming cause for a very short instant (maybe one nanosecond) we caught each other's stare but then I looked away.


I should stop that and the next time we happen to make eye contact, I will look back and give him a smile. (Edited on the 4th of March 2012).


That night, I told my entire dorm mates that I liked Law.


And I just met them.


Somehow, I really needed to get that of my chest.


Partly cause there was a part when I fell asleep for a short while during our talk and then when I woke up, they were talking about him and saying that he was cute and that they thought he was a girl the first time they saw him.


I just, you know, wanted them to know that I liked him.


I hope that they are trustworthy people but I know, the more people you tell, the sooner it will spread cause girls gossip a lot.


We stayed up till 2 am and by that time I knew everyone better and I also knew that I was the only one that had a crush on someone. No one else felt anything.


Day 3
When I woke up today, I went to bath and something made me want to bring my clothes to change inside the bathroom instead of in my dorm which was what I usually did.


When I came out, a whole bunch of seniors were right outside and Law was there with them.


My brain was processing too slowly so I didn't say anything but I knew they were all looking at me as I went inside my dorm which was very near to the public bathroom.


After a rigorous exercise and packing up, we had another activity but it was really boring.


We had breakfast after that and when I wanted to get bread for breakfast, Law was at that station and as soon as I was about to receive my slice from another senior, Law suddenly asked for "tweezers" for the bread so that he could help out.


I think he meant tongs. XD


There was another part shortly after that when I asked the seniors where all the Milo went to and then they all said that it finished and Law was also looking at me when I was asking but I didn't dare look at him.


We had more games after that but all I can say is that Law was still on my mind.


At the end of the day, after all the photo taking and all, I found out that we weren't going to be on the same bus back to school so I felt a bit disappointed but I knew he was staying behind to help with the cleaning up.


He's really a nice guy. He always stays behind to help with whatever cleaning up there is to be done like the clean-up of the unofficial Election Board room last Friday. (Edited on the 4th of March 2012)


I caught a glimpse of him again before we pulled away from the place but then I didn't want him to see me looking at him so I decided to busy myself in putting my headphones on.


Anyway, cutting out a lot of events, I was still waiting for my car when he arrived with other seniors and then he dumped his bag kind of near to where I was sitting.


Thinking about it now, why did he do that?


I mean, after that, he changed his bag's location to the outside part but he could have done that from the start, right?


But of course, it might have been another coincidence.


There was a part while I was busy doing homework when one of the seniors came over to us and talked a bit to us and he looked like he wanted to join in or something like that but then he went away.


He went home before I did.




Throughout camp, I kept on bumping into him and catching glimpses of him and I don't know if it's because of certain details other than maybe, fate?


I noticed that towards the end of camp, we were kind of approaching each other nearer and nearer whenever we walked past by each other.


The "approaching nearer and nearer" thing kind of got more frequent after that especially around the time when we had to prepare for upcoming events or when it was time to clean up.


But only when it seems as though there aren't that many people around us cause whenever there are people around us, we tend to make space between us. (Edited on the 4th of March 2012)


Is it only me who's noticing all of this?


Maybe I'm just thinking this way because I only focus my attention on him but then again, I don't remember always seeing anyone else as frequently as I saw him whenever we pass each other by.




There was a part during one of the workshops where the speaker said we are more attracted to things that are more similar to us.


I think that's kind of true.


He reminds me of myself sometimes throughout the camp and I kept on comparing those sides of him with my sides and they were almost similar.


I won't go into detail cause then it'd take me another hour to type it down and I've already spent an hour and thirty minutes writing up till this part.




I think I like him because he really is an attractive person not only appearance-wise but much more because of his personality.


I hope we'll get to work together again.


I hope this connection that I think is forming between us won't fade or disappear.




And because this is a very long post, I won't be able to make it very pretty but still, I'm doing the effort to make it look presentable and not boring. :)


And now that I re-read this and made it slightly less monotonous, I think I should make all my future posts a little less colourful as well. (Edited on the 4th of March 2012)


Going to sleep soon.