He remembers! :D

So before I go into that bit, I'll just record the embarrassing bit that happened to me during the first break.


Because we were going to have a meeting about the leadership camp this coming weekend, we had to yet again sacrifice our second break so I knew that I had to eat something heavy at 10.00 am which isn't really something pleasing.


Anyway, after I got my food, as usual, I tried to see where Law was seating and when I spotted him I realised that he was only eating one kuih or otherwise known as a Malaysian pastry.


And that he was sitting behind a wall so I couldn't ogle at him which was both a good and a bad thing.


Then, we waited for one of my friends (*Elva) to finish eating before we placed our crockery into the basin and at the same time, him and his gang also stood up.


Bear in mind, I didn't plan for any of this to happen.


So as I bent down to put my dishes into the basin, he walked past by behind me and so I thought "Thank goodness he didn't see me do anything embarrassing" but when I stood up I couldn't see Elva so I tried looking around for her.


And then, I just had to turn behind and say "Where's El-.....va...?" to his face and he did look slightly shocked. And then I hastily turned back in front and ran to where I finally saw Elva.


Hey, I thought June was behind me so don't think I wanted to make a fool of myself in front of you. >-<;


Later on, June was all up and out about it.

June: I saw something. :)

Me: Huh? What did you see?

June: Don't pretend like you don't know, I saw him looking at you when you turned around just now.

Me: HAHAHAHAHA. That was just a BIG coincidence.

June: Uh huh. Yeah.

And then I tried teasing her about her crush, *Sam, but it didn't work as smoothly as she got to tease me. =-=;

But thankfully she said I didn't look stupid in front of him.

However, that wasn't the highlight of today.

During the second break, we had to gather at one of the lecture halls for the meeting and then I saw him there in the front seat and I was like "Yes, he's going! XD".

Elva and her other friend were also seated right behind him but then they moved to our place. I would have never switched my seats had I been in her place.

So after the briefing, the year 1 Election Board trainees had to stay behind for a bit and they asked us if we had certain stuff which unfortunately, I did not have. :(

But after that short briefing ended, Law suddenly asked out loud in his ever so confident voice, "Who here is in the Public Speaking Club?".

I raised my hand and a couple of other people and he looked slightly shocked. I wonder why?

Then we had to meet him outside the hall for a short while and it turns out that he needed four people to be MCs during the Fixed and Free Campaign and since all the other people were hesitant and shy, I just raised my hand when he asked for a volunteer.

And after that, he had to get all four of the volunteers names so he asked them all one by one but when he got to me he said "*Beth, right?".

He remembered my name.

And just that small fact makes me happy cause at least he knows who I am. :)

But after he said that, I couldn't look at him normally anymore and keep it cool (and I did try my best!).

Cause from the moment he asked who was in the Public Speaking Club until I sat down for my class after that briefing ended, my heart was thumping like crazy and my cheeks were really hot.

I couldn't even share this experience with June or Helen immediately cause they were in a different class but I'm telling them tomorrow. :)

I really thought that I wasn't that interested in him anymore and when I reacted like that, I just questioned my sanity.

I really really really hope that I'll get closer to him, at correct intervals over a good period of time.

And most importantly, I discovered that he is definitely not shorter than me.

When I was facing him, I realised that we were seeing almost eye to eye and he was slouching. XD

Maybe all of this is happening cause I'm going to the morning prayer meetings?

Whatever it is, if it's our destiny, then let it be. :)

Opening up... to a guy

And not just any guy; but, my sister's boyfriend. Skye's boyfriend. Ken.


Just a side note, I think you guys understand that the names I use are aliases and have nothing to do with the people who really have these names. :)


Part of the reason why I'm posting this up instead of sleeping (cause it's 12.42 am here) is because I'm waiting for my hair to dry. XD


I bathed late cause the four of us (Skye, Rainie (Skye's twin), Summer (younger sister), and I) went out with Ken just now till 10.00 pm (which is considered very late for my parents XD).


It was fun going out with him cause this was the first time we met him since he lives in a different state than us so he flew all the way from KL to our place just for Skye and I felt so touched by this gesture cause he did it for her birthday (which was yesterday since it's 12.48 am already here) and she cried. :)


It's like that 5000 miles apart video on youtube but of course not as touching. XD


We first broached the subject about Law while we were drinking bubble tea but Ken hardly took part in the conversation.


We were so loud and I'm hoping no one that knows him was there cause who knows what they'll do with that information. :|


But later on while we were waiting for Summer and Rainie (who were having contact lens problems), he asked if I had a dream guy to which Skye responded by saying "Of course! Lee Jong Hyun!"


Somehow... Somehow, before she finished saying "Of course!", Law's name appeared in my head.


And I felt slightly disappointed in what she said but then again, Jong Hyun is still one of my dream guys. :)


Then Ken asked again, "What's your dream guy like?".


I said, "I like guys who are really quiet and is only noisy when he's with me. A slightly emo guy."


Thinking back now, I almost said "Guys with black hair that's floppy and has a fringe." 


I really like guys that has that kind of hairstyle somehow.


But re-thinking back again, my dream guy is someone who is really passionate in pursuing his dream and someone who has the same brainwave with me.


But the most important thing is that he'll love and understand me and that he'll be a faithful guy.


As corny as that sounds, I really like that type of guy.


He doesn't have to be taller than me.
He doesn't have to be rich,
He doesn't need to be super smart.
He doesn't need to play a musical instrument.
He doesn't need to have good fashion sense.


I mean, all those things are an added bonus but they are just minor details to the big picture.


That's what I truly believe.


Anyway, while we were having dinner, Rainie brought up that they should all help me with Law so she asked him what I should do if I want to hit on Law.


Ken said that I should first be friends with him and that I can't just straight away go into that part of the relationship.


Skye interrupted by saying that I should do what she did to get Ken which is to start texting him first but I'm keeping that idea for later for when I need to text him regarding stuff about the Election Board and I'm hoping that from there on, something will happen. :)


As unapproachable as Law is, I know that he is somehow just like me.


We don't always know how to make the first move to talk someone but when we do get into a conversation with someone, we'll do our best to make the other person comfortable and happy and then we'll slowly reveal our self to them.


That's just an assumption though.


Now I know how those people see me as, an arrogant girl who's really cold although I'm really not some holier-than-thou type of human.


I'll be going to school in 28 hours time and I'll finally be able to see him again even though he might have forgotten who I am and what my name is.


June told me to not give up and I will heed her advice.


I won't be a coward in pursuing this just like what Skye did to Ken and look at where they are now. :)




Please, let a miracle happen. :)

Probability IS 0.0000001

So I went to a friend's open house today and I got around to talking to one of the two friends who knows I have a crush for Law. :)


Her code name will be June. :)


She also has a crush on another guy in my class.


And so as I was talking to her, she kept on mentioning Law's name.


I guess it's cause she wants me to talk about our crushes together and so I did. :)


I found out that the day that I told her about my crush on Law, she went on Facebook and added him.


And he didn't accept the request.


Even when he went online the day after that.


Which tells me what? He isn't the type of person to add people he doesn't really know. I KNEW IT!


And then that got me thinking, if I added him, would he accept it???


I'm not going to yet though. I'm still waiting for the opportunity for both of us to talk normally before I add him cause for one, he doesn't really use his real name on Facebook so he'd probably go "How the hell does she know this is my Facebook page?".


I also came across a story I think he wrote when he was 16.


And what highly amused me was that he didn't use curse words and if he did, he censored them. XD


That made my day. Honestly.


I was going to literally laugh out loud but it was too early in the morning.


He's so effing cute! XD


He's a good boy. He really is. :)


And I prefer good boys to bad boys.


But how about him???


Can't wait for school to re-open.


Now I must not procrastinate any longer and go exercise and then bath, eat and then do Maths homework before I play DragonNest! :D