My faith lives on :)

He replied!


He replied!


He replied!


XD


Who would've known I'd get to where I am today????


At least I know that he thinks of me as a friend. :)


But I'll have to work harder on that, but for sure I won't text him everyday. That's be just too weird.


Maybe if I see something that reminds me of him, then I'll text him. :)




We mostly texted about computer games, RAM and him playing in a game tournament (League of Legends) and I did have fun texting him. :D


He's the type to reply almost immediately so I feel quite happy about that.




I've been on omegle the whole day cause I couldn't do what I was supposed to do so I must study hard tonight (well, what I can study) and then I must do as many things as I can tomorrow.




His messages really made my day! :D


We texted slightly a bit more than usual (so sadly I can't type everything out for now but maybe I'll make a blog post just about our messages in the future :)) so I think things are progressing quite well. :)


I feel really happy.


Hopefully we'll be able to become really good friends!




Must become a better person, a smarter person and a prettier person. :D


P/S: Notice the amount of smiley faces???? :D  That's how happy I am. XD

Early today

That's cause I won't be going online later as I will be studying Chemistry and Mathematics (which is what I'm supposed to do now) but somehow, I know I'll do just fine. I'm just going to revise a bit after I bathe and then after I eat dinner as well until around 12.00 am or so.


Physics and Biology was actually quite okay but I didn't have enough time to finish my Physics paper (which is a first time for me). I hope that all my hard work doesn't become a fail or anything.


I'll probably be going on Facebook towards the end of my studying period but it'll only be for a short while.


Anyway... :)


I went to school as usual and I was kind of hoping to see Law before I sat for my Physics paper so that I could get pumped up to answer my paper but I didn't get to see him, sadly.


There was a short break after the Physics paper and before the Biology paper started so I took that time to cram more additional information into my head.


But throughout that time, I was trying to find Law.


Some seniors stopped by to talk to me and cheer me up and I feel happy that they did but still I was kind of hoping to see Law.


So I was scratching my head away (which is an annoying habit that I need to get rid of) and busy talking to Helen when Helen suddenly said to me "Beth, look!" to which I looked up but I didn't see anything.

Me: What? What's happening?

Helen: It's L-... I mean, Josh just passed! (She nicknamed him Josh)

And then I had to be all so foolish to bend to my left to try and get a glimpse of him but somehow my mind was too cluttered with Biology facts and stuff that I couldn't focus on finding him so I gave up.

After the Biology paper, Helen and I went down together to the student lounge.

I wanted to put my bag on a table that was quite near the entrance but I decided against it and followed behind Helen when I noticed that if I had placed my bag on the former table, I would have been right next to Law and then I kind of regretted not putting my bag there. He was laughing with his friend and I felt really jealous of the friend just then.

Nevertheless, I just sucked it up and placed my bag on another table before excusing myself to go to the washroom.

When I came back, I suddenly realised that I needed to hand in my English assignment so I rushed over to Helen.

Me: Shoot! I forgot that the assignment deadline was today! I have to go see teacher first kay?

Helen: Wait, wait. I'm coming also.

Me: *Starts rooting around in my file for my assignment and then looks up to notice that Law was right next to me at the other table and then looks back down*

Helen: *Whispers* Hey, you know just now when you went to the washroom, Josh came over and looked here.

Me: Ha? So?

Helen: HUIYOH! XD

I mean, posting that conversation up was kind of random but then again, why did he look there? His peers weren't sitting at that table.

And then, when I announced that I had to go see my English teacher, he kind of shuffled back to his seat.

Somehow, I find that this is a positive feedback. Like I have a chance.

And now comes my favourite part, my love predictions! XD

The Hierophant - Assistance (Orthotopic) You will encounter a honorable lover, who will meet your spiritual needs. He is a good candidate. You will be loved by someone who is emotionally attached to you. Being single, you will have a chance to meet your true love. You yearn for someone who is older than you, because he or she can make you feel secure and gives you spiritual satisfaction. This relationship would be either old-fashioned or platonic (which is the type of relationship that I want :)).

And my favourite for today: Things are going your way and your admirer will see your strong sense of interest in him in the near future.

Does that mean that Law is my admirer? Cause, he's the only one that I'm having a strong interest in right now. XD

Tomorrow is the last Election Board meeting and when I read the text that informed me about it, my heart started beating really fast cause it would mean that it'll be one of the last times that I'd actually get to be really near him.

I'm going to stayback a bit until my sister fetches me because I want to see if anything will happen if I do.

I will smile at him tomorrow. I can't be afraid of these things.

I will go bath now, eat dinner and then study Chemistry and then study Mathematics.

He's been on my mind a lot lately. :)

I hope hope hope that tomorrow will be a lucky day for me because according to the horoscope daily compatibility, tomorrow my best compatibility is with Virgo at 92% and Law is a Virgo.

Please please please let tomorrow be a good day for me. 

I'm not dreaming am I?

Going to make things short cause I need to sleep real soon cause tomorrow is our cheer competition!!!


It'll be my first and last time being a cheerleader. :)


So, I didn't get to go online yesterday to post up what happened but actually nothing much did.


Yesterday, the year 1 Election Board people had to stayback for the Student Council Installation rehearsal.


I wanted to stayback and help with the decorating and all so that I'd get to talk with him but then the year ones were dismissed and I went back down to help with our sports' house banner (which looks pretty good if I do say so myself. XD)


Then as I was perched most inappropriately on the table (cause I couldn't reach certain places) I think I saw him looking in our direction.


Two minutes later, he suddenly appeared and I think he wanted to linger around but then maybe he thought that he couldn't cause he is from a different sports house so he left.


Then, as Elva and I were finishing up with the banner, all of our seniors came down and so did Law.


Then, I caught him looking at me, I think.


Notice that I put I think behind almost every thing that has something to do with him staring at me cause the way that he does it is not obvious in the least.


That was it for Thursday and I thought to myself last night "I must have screwed up everything."


Today was installation ceremony.


At the end, I saw that he was looking for someone but when he spotted me, he kind of stopped looking. I think.


Then, as we were arranging the chairs and tables, both of us instinctively moved to one end of the hall while almost everyone else clustered on the other side of the hall.


Then, we both worked silently but it was as if we were working side by side cause we were so near to each other but it was like both of us were keeping distance from each other.


But what happened after that is the most important thing.


He went to a different place as we were about to finish piling the chairs up when I was about to struggle with an armload of chairs but then one of the year 1 Election Board guys came over to help me and of course I gave a big smile which is something that I think I actually do very rarely.


That was when I turned my head and saw his face and it was kind of like.... I don't know.


At first, he was talking with another senior but when he saw the guy helping me out, he kind of went silent and his face looked slightly (very slightly) disappointed.


I think.


But throughout the day, we made eye-contact a few times (very few, mind you) and now I have more courage and confidence to not give up.


I'm no longer afraid to make the first move if I have to and I'm also no longer afraid to smile to him first when I see him next.


I'm going to cheer as enthusiastically as I can tomorrow using all this feelings that I have for him.


I hope this means something good.


My love prediction today: At this stage love is strong - so give your admirer the same look back and you'll be in for a few surprises.


I hope that it'll be really like that later on today. :)


I must go sleep now.

I don't want to regret

I am praying, seriously praying, that Law will stayback tomorrow and that we'll get the chance to talk cause it'll be the second last day for us to work with each other.


When I re-read that sentence, my heart just dropped. Twice.


I don't know when I'll ever get to approach him again and be able to get the chance to talk to him.


Today, I only got to see him at the end of the first break since I had my back turned to him and I had to finish typing the minutes for the club meeting we had earlier on during the first break.


And even then, we were walking up the stairs so I couldn't exactly always look up to look at him.


I'm praying for a chance to be able to talk to him tomorrow.


Please.


I won't waste any chance that I can get ever again.


Thinking back to last Thursday and all the chances I had, I feel so stupid for having let them pass by me just like that.


I can't tell you how many times I've palm-faced myself because I regret not having taken the first step in making a conversation with him.


I fail as a girl.


But I'll go into that subject another time.


Please, please, please let Law and I talk with each other tomorrow and for all the other days after that.


PS. Here are my "fortunes" for tomorrow.


Judgment - Resurrection (Orthotopic) Fortune - Love This period of time, you two will find ways to love from previous mistakes. You will reunite with your former lovers. For singles, your love will be blessed by the love messenger and create a miracle of love. You will have great luck.


I'm really praying that that's true.


The Sun: Prosperity in relationships and career is possible now. Sun God present and shining down upon you. A good time to plant new crops or begin new projects from the ground up. Negativity of Moon's influences gone and cycle can begin anew. Truth and revelation. Good health, recovery and happiness. Time out in the sun is called for, perhaps a vacation to a warm place is warranted. All things bright and out in the open.

Opening up... to a guy

And not just any guy; but, my sister's boyfriend. Skye's boyfriend. Ken.


Just a side note, I think you guys understand that the names I use are aliases and have nothing to do with the people who really have these names. :)


Part of the reason why I'm posting this up instead of sleeping (cause it's 12.42 am here) is because I'm waiting for my hair to dry. XD


I bathed late cause the four of us (Skye, Rainie (Skye's twin), Summer (younger sister), and I) went out with Ken just now till 10.00 pm (which is considered very late for my parents XD).


It was fun going out with him cause this was the first time we met him since he lives in a different state than us so he flew all the way from KL to our place just for Skye and I felt so touched by this gesture cause he did it for her birthday (which was yesterday since it's 12.48 am already here) and she cried. :)


It's like that 5000 miles apart video on youtube but of course not as touching. XD


We first broached the subject about Law while we were drinking bubble tea but Ken hardly took part in the conversation.


We were so loud and I'm hoping no one that knows him was there cause who knows what they'll do with that information. :|


But later on while we were waiting for Summer and Rainie (who were having contact lens problems), he asked if I had a dream guy to which Skye responded by saying "Of course! Lee Jong Hyun!"


Somehow... Somehow, before she finished saying "Of course!", Law's name appeared in my head.


And I felt slightly disappointed in what she said but then again, Jong Hyun is still one of my dream guys. :)


Then Ken asked again, "What's your dream guy like?".


I said, "I like guys who are really quiet and is only noisy when he's with me. A slightly emo guy."


Thinking back now, I almost said "Guys with black hair that's floppy and has a fringe." 


I really like guys that has that kind of hairstyle somehow.


But re-thinking back again, my dream guy is someone who is really passionate in pursuing his dream and someone who has the same brainwave with me.


But the most important thing is that he'll love and understand me and that he'll be a faithful guy.


As corny as that sounds, I really like that type of guy.


He doesn't have to be taller than me.
He doesn't have to be rich,
He doesn't need to be super smart.
He doesn't need to play a musical instrument.
He doesn't need to have good fashion sense.


I mean, all those things are an added bonus but they are just minor details to the big picture.


That's what I truly believe.


Anyway, while we were having dinner, Rainie brought up that they should all help me with Law so she asked him what I should do if I want to hit on Law.


Ken said that I should first be friends with him and that I can't just straight away go into that part of the relationship.


Skye interrupted by saying that I should do what she did to get Ken which is to start texting him first but I'm keeping that idea for later for when I need to text him regarding stuff about the Election Board and I'm hoping that from there on, something will happen. :)


As unapproachable as Law is, I know that he is somehow just like me.


We don't always know how to make the first move to talk someone but when we do get into a conversation with someone, we'll do our best to make the other person comfortable and happy and then we'll slowly reveal our self to them.


That's just an assumption though.


Now I know how those people see me as, an arrogant girl who's really cold although I'm really not some holier-than-thou type of human.


I'll be going to school in 28 hours time and I'll finally be able to see him again even though he might have forgotten who I am and what my name is.


June told me to not give up and I will heed her advice.


I won't be a coward in pursuing this just like what Skye did to Ken and look at where they are now. :)




Please, let a miracle happen. :)