The Reason why I should stay Single

I haven't posted in here for ages and that's mainly because I started losing interest in relationships awhile back.
It started out with me just wanting to not think too much about getting into one and then in the end, I just feel like it is so much of a bother and too much effort.

Plus, I've seen my siblings change, either for the good or for the worse and I kind of dread to think that I might end up going in the wrong direction.

I mean, it kind of is happening now; not like I'm dating anyone or anything.

I started becoming friends with a Korean girl through deviantArt and over time, we grew to become very close until it got to a point where I wondered whether I liked her more than just a friend but after some thought and inspection, I've decided that I don't have that kind of feeling for her.

Yet, I find myself getting jealous when other people get all pally with her.
And I find it sad that I get upset when she comments on other people's things when she hasn't replied to my message from three days ago.

She has some eye problems now and I understand that she wants to rest them but if that is so, why won't she talk with me?

I seriously sound like some crazy girlfriend now ahahahahaha.

I find myself missing her messages and checking my page and her page for any updates or notifications.

We already swore to each other that we'd be best friends forever so I'm doing my best to have faith in this friendship but I'm so scared of being replaced.
I'm not even that good as an artist and she is way above me.
It really makes me wonder why she decided to be friends with me.
And all those other people who are pally with her are really amazing artists.
I bet she wonders why she got stuck with me.

My confidence in my own self is very low at this moment.

I never expected to invest this much emotion into this friendship.

Initially, I really tried to hold back because I have trust issues but she instead was so giving and kind to me that in the end, my wall broke down and I started to reach out again to her.

Now I just feel pathetic, waiting for her messages.

On my side, I will continue to fight for this friendship but if she ever just wants to let me go, it's her right and I won't stop her.
I'll get depressed for a few days but I'm sure I'll get over it.

So yes, I shouldn't even consider getting a boyfriend because the kind of emotions running through me right now is so bitter that I really can't stand them.
And thank goodness they haven't really affected much of me just yet.

But I feel like if I go through another day without any message from her, I'll really get down.

I still don't think this is a crush, at least I hope so.

Small things

I went to uni to study Architecture and Building Technology with Yu and another Chinese guy friend yesterday and somehow, I really did expect to see Peter there and yeah, he did come along even though he didn't talk much or participate much at all.

At the end of the day when we said our 'bye's he seemed a bit cold to me but I did my best to not think too much about it.

And yeah, him liking my status isn't much but it reassures me all the same, that he at the very least wants to be friends.

And yeah, I can't deny that it did make me feel happy and I felt a huge smile plaster itself across my face.

It does seem a bit sudden though that we became friends and I'm also not very sure how it happened.

I think it started when I went to look at his sketches and I asked him a lot of questions about it and from then onwards we just talked a bit here and there.

And after the exams, I think I will finally do drawings of almost all the guys that I've talked about here. It should be pretty interesting I suppose.

And I definitely will not let this momentary feeling get into my head.

And now I shall go back to work. Hopefully things will turn out well for the test tomorrow.

I will not be swept away

Okay lets do the minor stuff first.

I think that Prince and I are finally on an okay-ish base. I thought that he hated me because he didn't come to see Tia and I's project yesterday despite the fact that we got an A on it (he got an A-) but he liked a post I put in our course's Facebook page and I feel that it's a sign that he's okay with me now. And yes, that does makes me feel happy and I can finally breathe. :)

On the other hand, Carl isn't. I think he's finally given up on me because he didn't even say 'hey' to me yesterday when we passed by each other even though he used to and he's a bit cold to me but I don't mind that haha. He's still trying to get a bit of my attention though.

Yesterday, the guys in our design studio started to lift themselves off the ground using the visible metal beams on the ceiling. My back was to them so when I finally turned around, I saw one of my guy friends pulling himself off the ground and so I said "Bravo!" to him since he was Italian. Tia was facing them though so she told me that before my guy friend went up, Carl also attempted to do it but he couldn't. And he also proceeded to do it after I said "Bravo!" to my guy friend and this time he managed to do it once and the guys erupted in cheers for him.

Prince could do it several times and he even managed to touch the ceiling with his feet. And then the other two guys also tried to do the same but they couldn't hahaha. I jokingly said to Tia that I had good taste in guys because Prince was strong enough to do that.

And I don't know whether I mentioned this before (perhaps I did but I couldn't find the post when I went through a few of them) but I'm actually starting to take an interest in another guy in class whom we shall call Peter. Such a safe name I know but it kind of suits him.

Yet again, he's a Chinese guy but he is only slightly taller than me, if not the same height, and he isn't what you would call good looking. Maybe cute but that's about it. From there I realised that Prince is the only guy I liked that was definitely taller than me compared to the people I liked before and that for Peter, he's the only one that isn't on-the-spot gorgeous. Not that I like him just yet as it's only an interest, not even an attraction.

So you could say that I'm not interested in his physical attributes at all, rather his personality and his taste.

For one, he actually likes Haruki Murakami I mean, seriously??? That is such an attention grabber for me because one, he reads books and two, he likes Haruki Murakami.

Two, he doesn't smoke despite the fact that some of his Chinese friends smoke as well. Or maybe he does, I don't know, but I never saw him with a cigarette between his fingers.

Three, he's really passionate about architecture and he always goes around, looking at other people's projects and listening to what the professors have to say and he also got an A for his project which he did alone (at this point Tia said that I really do have good taste in guys XD).

This has been going on for around two weeks I think and Tia was teasing me all the time about it but I didn't really mind.

I started to talk with him bit by bit though and I'm not too sure myself why but he's also being very nice to me so I'm happy with that.

Yesterday, I was feeling really insecure about the perspective drawings that I did for our perspective and at one point I felt like Tia wanted to ask him to come over and to reassure me but she didn't and I felt a bit sad by that.

But then later on, Peter himself came over and I looked up at him, made eye-contact and said "Yes?" and he smiled and said "It's very nice" with a smile and for a moment, my heart skipped a beat but it quickly disappeared. It did make me a smidgen bit happier.

He came back several times to look at it and I talked with him a bit more after the reviews ended and he said 'bye' to us when he left so I felt happy at that as well.

Naturally though, I'm not going to let myself fall for him and I know I probably said this a hundred times with reference to my past crushes but I'm definitely not going to be lenient on this one because for one, even though he's single, I have a feeling that he already likes another girl who keeps commenting on his profile pictures and statuses.

And yeah, I guess that's it for now. Exams will start next week and hopefully I'll be able to do well for them despite the fact that I'm really lazy now. I will study a bit tonight though.

Sedimentation

I guess you can say that things are finally settling down between Prince and I. I no longer feel such a strong attraction to him and neither do I feel so sad when I see him online. It took me a month so I guess that's pretty fast. :)

We do have a weird kind of relationship though, hovering between acquaintances and friends.

After the lecture today was over, I Facebook messaged him the correct deadline date since he wasn't there and he replied with an "ok, thanks!!" and I didn't reply after that either cause I figured it'd be best to leave it there.

Funny how we can almost chat normally on Facebook but not so in real life.

I have a mathematics exam tomorrow which I will start to study soon but really, I couldn't care less. Maybe I will tomorrow but I really believe that I burnt out around the time that I found out he had a girlfriend.

Carl tried to approach me today but I was very brisk when I talked with him. Maybe that's why he didn't stay in class today.

Whenever it is that love will come for me, I will just have to be patient.

And since I'm getting slightly lazier to post in here, I have no idea how frequent I'll update this place. We'll just have to see.

I'm sure he knows

That I like him. I don't know why but that's just the feeling that I get.

I didn't expect him to come for class today but I saw him in the afternoon and he sat behind Yu and for a moment I regretted not sitting next to Yu today but I figured it was for the best otherwise I wouldn't have been able to concentrate during maths.

I did feel like he was watching me sometimes. Not like I caught him in the act or anything but I could just sense it.

And I wanted to talk with him, naturally, but I never got the chance, even though he stayed back after class for awhile. And yeah, I wanted to follow him out when he did but I didn't against my better judgement hahaha.

However, Yu and I met him and Carl together with another one of my guy friends as we were walking to the stationary shop and the other guy said "Ciao" so naturally Yu and I said "Ciao" back and the other two guys said the same and by habit I looked at Prince and we made extremely brief eye contact but like I said previously, it felt tense and awkward.

Somehow though, I feel like it's the beginning to the reparation of our friendship. :) And that alone makes me feel quite happy.

Going to a friend's birthday party now and Carl is going as well. I don't know what to expect but I will do my best to be normal. 

Smooth

He came much more earlier than myself to class for once which shocked me a bit. He and Carl were all set for the evaluation for our project and they got an A while Yu and I got an A-B.

One thing that struck me a lot was that I missed seeing him.

Today though, I didn't ogle at him as much as I used to and I also did my best to not follow him around. The times I did though were purely accidental since Yu was dragging me here and there to look at the other models.

I admit, I wanted to talk with him very badly and I just felt so impatient and nervy while I was with Yu, discussing our models and drawings. I finally got the chance though when the professors had finished evaluating their work and ours and were looking at other projects.

I kept going to their models and drawings and looking at them for a long time, especially the panels containing the sections and plans and Yu and I just looked at the model and she wondered whether or not we could take a look inside and since I was curious as well, I asked him whether or not the side could be opened and he and Carl readily came to show us their model.

Naturally Carl tried talking more with me and I did respond but I was asking Prince more questions than him but Carl answered them anyway. Carl also walked over behind me at one point but I smoothly walked to a different position. I really thought that he gave up on me since he didn't try to do anything yesterday but one can only hope hahaha.

I didn't make a lot of eye contact with Prince compared to last time. I figured that I should try take things slowly in rebuilding our friendship.

I still do think that we have the same wavelength because he and I were kind of in the same place at the same time when we went to look at other people's work.

Also, and even though this is highly coincidental, I took more to his drawings than Carl's.

And exactly how did I know that it was his?

On the section drawing, there was a missing line and I asked them if it was on purpose or not and Prince said "Oh, I forgot to draw in that line."

I was really staring at those two panels that he did the whole time and he probably saw me but it's not as though I knew previously that he drew them.

On the other hand, he was also quite fixated on my drawing. A couple of people were, really, but it was his attention to it that mattered the most for me. He even took a picture of it and really contemplated it for a long time and I longed to discuss it with him but I knew it wouldn't be good. I think he knew it was my work.

When we talked though, he wasn't really warm and he kind of chuckled at one point I think and compared to his relationship with Acia, mine is like a dark valley while her's is up in the sky since they were smiling and laughing together.

Heck yeah am I jealous, especially since her project got an A as well but I won't complain.

Again we exchanged glances every now and then but I didn't dare to look for long though and I also made sure to interact with other guys so that he won't feel too special and perhaps, maybe, I wish, he was jealous because of that.

I hope that when I see him on Thursday we will take another small step in becoming friends.

Everything happens for a reason

I feel like I screwed up any buddings of friendship that he and I could have had.


I was just too impatient to rush things and maybe I scared him off or something.


At least he was nice enough to reply to my texts, really. I'm so grateful that he did.


I didn't text him after test today and I was really tempted to. I might break my abstinence tomorrow though if I do happen to see him.


I only saw him once today and I might have been able to see him again if I weren't so scared to look at where the year twos were.


At least I know that whatever it is that's happening between us (if there is anything that is) not a lot of people know about it cause Blair treated me quite normally today.


I'm hoping that as the time increases and lengthens, so will this whole thing repair itself.


If possible, by next Friday cause it'll be the club party and I don't know how I'll be able to face him properly without making things awkward.


I wonder if he's wondering why I didn't text him.


Maybe he's too busy with Ivy or something.




I really hope he doesn't hate me.


I got offered a scholarship but I don't want it cause I'm not interested in Geophysics.


Also... there will be a camp that I have to participate in if I want to get that scholarship and it will happen next week lasting from Thursday until Saturday and surprisingly, the first thing that came into my mind was "I won't be able to see Law./Will he care that I'm not there?"


I freaking wish I didn't screw up.


I bet if I had been more patient, we could have at least been friends.


I just hope that it will be able to heal.

Really, the best camp I've been to, yet

So, I'll just try to recall back all the memories I had made and collected (especially regarding Law) the past 3 days and 2 nights I was away at Leadership Camp. :)


We'll go through all the events chronologically.


Day 1
As soon as school finished in the afternoon, I couldn't wait to go down and hop on the bus to go to Leadership Camp but naturally, I didn't act like some fool.


Okay, maybe I did.


When I got down, I had no idea what to do with my school bag (and my seniors had told me previously to not get confused =-=;) and so I went to ask one of the seniors what to do with it and he asked me to wait. Law was right next to him but of course I did my best to not look at him.


Although... he was still in my panorama of vision.


When I registered my school bag, he helped to carry it. 


That was part of his job of course, nothing special there.


And then I went to get ready at my station but since my bus was to be the last one to leave, our team was slightly too early so I went to help carry the bags instead.


At first, Law wasn't helping but then he eventually came by and helped out as well but I couldn't spend too much time helping him with the bags cause I had to return to my station.


My job was to hand out the booklets and tags for the camp and I hoped I'd get his tag but I didn't and if I did change my part of the booklets and tags with the other person, it'd be obvious so I decided to do my best to not try to get into anything that had something to do with him.


Sadly, even though I prayed, I didn't get to be in the same group as him.


In a way, that was good cause then if that had happened, he'd just think of me as someone under his wing so I used that to cheer up myself.


He sat at the back of the bus with the other seniors and I'm thankful I didn't turn my head a lot just to look at him.


When we reached camp, we helped out a bit and then we were given a basic briefing before we unpacked in our dorms.


Luckily, everyone in my dorm is nice and we all got along very well. :)


We had dinner after we bathed and all the Election Board juniors had to help serve the participants, buffet style, and I kept hoping that I'd get to serve Law but I never did. 


Throughout the camp. :(


Then we had our ice breaking game which had really unexpected but fun games. :)


We also had to do our cheer which had us pointing at the crowd and I kept on pointing subconsciously at him.


Idiot.


There was a workshop after that but since the Election Board didn't have a session for this workshop, we sat in a circle and discussed stuff and some of the seniors shared their stories with us.


There was a part when I suggested something that one of the seniors asked me to get permission for it from a lecturer and I kept on turning front and back because I didn't know how to put my questions into words and all that time, Law was there and I bet he thought I was stupid or something somewhere along those lines.


I was really active in asking questions during one particular session and I hope that no one felt annoyed with me. 


I don't want to annoy anyone.


And then we all went back to our dorms where we told ghost stories until 12.30 am and then we went to sleep.


Day 2
I woke up super early to bath and then we all went down to have our morning exercise.


I noticed that he looked at me, or maybe he just happened to look in my direction.


I helped out again at breakfast and I just caught glimpses of him every now and then.


We had more activities after that but I'm not in the mood to write about them cause my team had this kind of tense, black cloud hanging around.


All that I can say is that I kept on looking at him which was not supposed to happen.


70% - 90% of the time, he was on my mind.


During the photo session, I felt slightly sad that I was slightly shorter than my other friend (cause she was wearing shoes with thick soles and that made her taller than me!) but that was really a blessing in disguise cause I got to stand on Law's side.


I noticed that he is most definitely taller than me.


I couldn't estimate his height from a distance so I always thought that he was shorter than me but he isn't!


He is probably around 5-7 cm taller than me at least.


I never noticed that until he stood (not exactly) in front of me.


After that, we played a game kind of like a dating sim game except that it was more of a surviving game for a group of people than getting to score with some girl or something like that.


It was the best activity held during the camp, and I'm not saying this just because Law was one of those who held an important job in making it happen.


There was a part after we stopped playing it that Law said that the inspiration came from Battlestar Galactica and somehow, that name seemed familiar so I clapped my hands loudly while there were only a few other claps from other people.


And those other people were only guys.


No other girl was clapping.


You know why?



Battlestar Galactica is a sci-fi series which has been turned into video games and it is also a board game.


It seemed familiar to me but I didn't know why until I realised I heard about it and saw it from The Big Bang Theory which Law watches.



This really shows how feminine I am right?


But then when I clapped my hands, I noticed that he grinned at me but then again, that was only a quick glimpse because I didn't want to stare at him for too long cause I wouldn't know if I had to smile back or not.


Thinking back now (today is the 4th of March 2012) I should have. =-=;


I noticed that after that, while our group was practicing for talent night, he kept on passing us by with some friends and he even sat close to where we were practicing. But I'm sure those were all just lucky coincidences.


Our group went to have dinner after that and then we bathed and then everyone reassembled back at the main hall.


One of my friends called me "pretty" and honestly I felt a bit happy because then, maybe, Law would think I'm pretty.


But then again, I know I'm not pretty so I asked her to stop complimenting me and tried to change the subject by calling her pretty also.


Everyone then put on their performance according to what their given challenge was and some were really funny but others were a bit awkward.


Our group performed towards the end which was the second last slot.


We did a skit whereby a student made it into the Student Council but at the same time he got a scholarship so in the end he had to choose between the two.


But we got him to get both in the skit. :)


I was one of the Student Council interviewers and I was really nervous for two reasons.


A] It was only my second time acting in front of a really huge crowd (I can be usually found backstage with all the PA system and props making and stuff).


B] Law was paying attention to our skit.


Previously, he didn't really pay much attention to the other skit but then I noticed (as soon as I sat down in my place on stage) that he was paying attention.


He was sitting right across me and he wasn't part of the audience so in a way, I didn't have to pay much attention to him.


I almost messed up my lines halfway through though cause I caught him looking at me in an amused way cause I was kind of parody-ing him when he was interviewing the Student Council candidates and I think he knows that I was parody-ing him.


After we finished, we got a tremendous applause from the audience and I was a bit shocked really.


Even though there was a part that I embarrassed myself, someone told me that the seniors liked it cause they imitated me and even one of the seniors gave me a compliment after that.


I feel a bit pleased cause I knew that at least I'm not that bad at acting or anything like that.


We had a sing along after that and I noticed that as usual, whenever something very active comes up, Law just excused himself from the crowd and watched all of us being crazy (me screaming at the top of my lungs).


That doesn't mean he has bad showmanship though. 


He danced the banana dance twice on the first day and when his group had to do their cheer, he really put a lot of effort into it.


He made a really cute face. XD


I didn't get to serve him that night during dinner as well so yeah. :(


However, during supper while I was eating my instant noodles, he sat right across from me , two tables away and somehow my intuition tells me that he intentionally did that.


I did caught him staring at me.


And I'm sure that I'm not dreaming cause for a very short instant (maybe one nanosecond) we caught each other's stare but then I looked away.


I should stop that and the next time we happen to make eye contact, I will look back and give him a smile. (Edited on the 4th of March 2012).


That night, I told my entire dorm mates that I liked Law.


And I just met them.


Somehow, I really needed to get that of my chest.


Partly cause there was a part when I fell asleep for a short while during our talk and then when I woke up, they were talking about him and saying that he was cute and that they thought he was a girl the first time they saw him.


I just, you know, wanted them to know that I liked him.


I hope that they are trustworthy people but I know, the more people you tell, the sooner it will spread cause girls gossip a lot.


We stayed up till 2 am and by that time I knew everyone better and I also knew that I was the only one that had a crush on someone. No one else felt anything.


Day 3
When I woke up today, I went to bath and something made me want to bring my clothes to change inside the bathroom instead of in my dorm which was what I usually did.


When I came out, a whole bunch of seniors were right outside and Law was there with them.


My brain was processing too slowly so I didn't say anything but I knew they were all looking at me as I went inside my dorm which was very near to the public bathroom.


After a rigorous exercise and packing up, we had another activity but it was really boring.


We had breakfast after that and when I wanted to get bread for breakfast, Law was at that station and as soon as I was about to receive my slice from another senior, Law suddenly asked for "tweezers" for the bread so that he could help out.


I think he meant tongs. XD


There was another part shortly after that when I asked the seniors where all the Milo went to and then they all said that it finished and Law was also looking at me when I was asking but I didn't dare look at him.


We had more games after that but all I can say is that Law was still on my mind.


At the end of the day, after all the photo taking and all, I found out that we weren't going to be on the same bus back to school so I felt a bit disappointed but I knew he was staying behind to help with the cleaning up.


He's really a nice guy. He always stays behind to help with whatever cleaning up there is to be done like the clean-up of the unofficial Election Board room last Friday. (Edited on the 4th of March 2012)


I caught a glimpse of him again before we pulled away from the place but then I didn't want him to see me looking at him so I decided to busy myself in putting my headphones on.


Anyway, cutting out a lot of events, I was still waiting for my car when he arrived with other seniors and then he dumped his bag kind of near to where I was sitting.


Thinking about it now, why did he do that?


I mean, after that, he changed his bag's location to the outside part but he could have done that from the start, right?


But of course, it might have been another coincidence.


There was a part while I was busy doing homework when one of the seniors came over to us and talked a bit to us and he looked like he wanted to join in or something like that but then he went away.


He went home before I did.




Throughout camp, I kept on bumping into him and catching glimpses of him and I don't know if it's because of certain details other than maybe, fate?


I noticed that towards the end of camp, we were kind of approaching each other nearer and nearer whenever we walked past by each other.


The "approaching nearer and nearer" thing kind of got more frequent after that especially around the time when we had to prepare for upcoming events or when it was time to clean up.


But only when it seems as though there aren't that many people around us cause whenever there are people around us, we tend to make space between us. (Edited on the 4th of March 2012)


Is it only me who's noticing all of this?


Maybe I'm just thinking this way because I only focus my attention on him but then again, I don't remember always seeing anyone else as frequently as I saw him whenever we pass each other by.




There was a part during one of the workshops where the speaker said we are more attracted to things that are more similar to us.


I think that's kind of true.


He reminds me of myself sometimes throughout the camp and I kept on comparing those sides of him with my sides and they were almost similar.


I won't go into detail cause then it'd take me another hour to type it down and I've already spent an hour and thirty minutes writing up till this part.




I think I like him because he really is an attractive person not only appearance-wise but much more because of his personality.


I hope we'll get to work together again.


I hope this connection that I think is forming between us won't fade or disappear.




And because this is a very long post, I won't be able to make it very pretty but still, I'm doing the effort to make it look presentable and not boring. :)


And now that I re-read this and made it slightly less monotonous, I think I should make all my future posts a little less colourful as well. (Edited on the 4th of March 2012)


Going to sleep soon.

Probability IS 0.0000001

So I went to a friend's open house today and I got around to talking to one of the two friends who knows I have a crush for Law. :)


Her code name will be June. :)


She also has a crush on another guy in my class.


And so as I was talking to her, she kept on mentioning Law's name.


I guess it's cause she wants me to talk about our crushes together and so I did. :)


I found out that the day that I told her about my crush on Law, she went on Facebook and added him.


And he didn't accept the request.


Even when he went online the day after that.


Which tells me what? He isn't the type of person to add people he doesn't really know. I KNEW IT!


And then that got me thinking, if I added him, would he accept it???


I'm not going to yet though. I'm still waiting for the opportunity for both of us to talk normally before I add him cause for one, he doesn't really use his real name on Facebook so he'd probably go "How the hell does she know this is my Facebook page?".


I also came across a story I think he wrote when he was 16.


And what highly amused me was that he didn't use curse words and if he did, he censored them. XD


That made my day. Honestly.


I was going to literally laugh out loud but it was too early in the morning.


He's so effing cute! XD


He's a good boy. He really is. :)


And I prefer good boys to bad boys.


But how about him???


Can't wait for school to re-open.


Now I must not procrastinate any longer and go exercise and then bath, eat and then do Maths homework before I play DragonNest! :D

And the probability was really 0.01...

Today I was to become the secretary for the EB.  :)


I did my best to not expect to even meet Law today cause he hardly stayed-back yesterday so I just thought to myself, "What is the probability that he'd even stay-back for today and if he did, what would be the probability that I'd even get to see him since I'm working in a room and he'll probably be walking around, ushering people maybe?"


And so, as soon as I got excused from the laboratory, I rushed to my work place, eager to get started even if it meant I couldn't see Law.


When I reached the meeting place, they told me that my room got changed and so I went to my allocated room, ready for work.


And then just as I sat down in my place, he entered the room and walked around a bit before going out.


I thought to myself, "Well, at least I saw him for a bit today. :)" when he suddenly came back in with his bag and sat down.


Turned out, we were kind of working together. :D


We got properly introduced to each other and even if he did forget my name halfway through, at least he asked what my name was again.


And when I dropped my pen to the ground, I think I bumped into a wall but I really don't remember doing so but then he pointed it out. He said something again after that but then the next candidate came in.


He hardly asked any questions to the candidates and I was a little surprised what with him having a vast experience in all kinds of public speaking competitions.


At least he isn't as fair as he looks like. XD


And I really like his voice. It's so clear and filled with a certain aura that makes you want to stop whatever it is you're doing and pay attention to him.


And even when he messed up a bit, he still managed to cover-up his mistakes and I was really impressed.


On a side note, I'm glad I didn't run for SC cause their expectations were so high and I had this feeling that I wouldn't even look impressive. :|


I hope I'll get to work with him even more. :D


God has really been kind to me and so I shall study after this as a sign of gratitude.


I also hope that I'll get to say "Hi!" normally to all my seniors and that we could all be really friends with each other.


I mean, even with Law, cause you know, it'll be hard trying to get him to like me in that way so it'd be good even if we can become friends that can actually talk with each other normally. And then become really good friends. :)


Up till this day, I haven't had any really close relationships with friends who are older than me.


Maybe, hopefully, he'll become one. :)