Gets into slow motion

I've found another idol to start gawking over again. :D

Introducing Lay/Zhang Yixing of EXO-M! :D

He is like my dream guy. Well, that's only based on the things that I know about him so far haha. But he's really quiet and refreshing, passionate and hardworking, lovable and yet awkward. He does seem a bit like Prince, his personality I mean, but only a bit.

I don't think I like Prince but I sometimes feel a bit happy when I see him, not like I'll let that happiness bloom any further. I do feel like that we could be friends after some more time has passed.

At the end of the lecture today, I saw him talking with the Australian guy. They're probably close because they went to one of my classmate's birthday bash the other week and they met there.

As I was passing by both of them with a friend of mine, Prince kind of stopped talking with the guy and, I think, he turned to look in our direction. Maybe he was looking at my friend since she had a skirt on, I'm not that outstanding anyway but I felt myself hoping that he wanted to look at me and that he wanted me to say 'Bye'.

But I will definitely not let myself fall for him again, even though I think that we have the same brainwave.

I'll just let God and fate plan my life out.

I'm not dreaming am I?

Going to make things short cause I need to sleep real soon cause tomorrow is our cheer competition!!!


It'll be my first and last time being a cheerleader. :)


So, I didn't get to go online yesterday to post up what happened but actually nothing much did.


Yesterday, the year 1 Election Board people had to stayback for the Student Council Installation rehearsal.


I wanted to stayback and help with the decorating and all so that I'd get to talk with him but then the year ones were dismissed and I went back down to help with our sports' house banner (which looks pretty good if I do say so myself. XD)


Then as I was perched most inappropriately on the table (cause I couldn't reach certain places) I think I saw him looking in our direction.


Two minutes later, he suddenly appeared and I think he wanted to linger around but then maybe he thought that he couldn't cause he is from a different sports house so he left.


Then, as Elva and I were finishing up with the banner, all of our seniors came down and so did Law.


Then, I caught him looking at me, I think.


Notice that I put I think behind almost every thing that has something to do with him staring at me cause the way that he does it is not obvious in the least.


That was it for Thursday and I thought to myself last night "I must have screwed up everything."


Today was installation ceremony.


At the end, I saw that he was looking for someone but when he spotted me, he kind of stopped looking. I think.


Then, as we were arranging the chairs and tables, both of us instinctively moved to one end of the hall while almost everyone else clustered on the other side of the hall.


Then, we both worked silently but it was as if we were working side by side cause we were so near to each other but it was like both of us were keeping distance from each other.


But what happened after that is the most important thing.


He went to a different place as we were about to finish piling the chairs up when I was about to struggle with an armload of chairs but then one of the year 1 Election Board guys came over to help me and of course I gave a big smile which is something that I think I actually do very rarely.


That was when I turned my head and saw his face and it was kind of like.... I don't know.


At first, he was talking with another senior but when he saw the guy helping me out, he kind of went silent and his face looked slightly (very slightly) disappointed.


I think.


But throughout the day, we made eye-contact a few times (very few, mind you) and now I have more courage and confidence to not give up.


I'm no longer afraid to make the first move if I have to and I'm also no longer afraid to smile to him first when I see him next.


I'm going to cheer as enthusiastically as I can tomorrow using all this feelings that I have for him.


I hope this means something good.


My love prediction today: At this stage love is strong - so give your admirer the same look back and you'll be in for a few surprises.


I hope that it'll be really like that later on today. :)


I must go sleep now.

I don't want to regret

I am praying, seriously praying, that Law will stayback tomorrow and that we'll get the chance to talk cause it'll be the second last day for us to work with each other.


When I re-read that sentence, my heart just dropped. Twice.


I don't know when I'll ever get to approach him again and be able to get the chance to talk to him.


Today, I only got to see him at the end of the first break since I had my back turned to him and I had to finish typing the minutes for the club meeting we had earlier on during the first break.


And even then, we were walking up the stairs so I couldn't exactly always look up to look at him.


I'm praying for a chance to be able to talk to him tomorrow.


Please.


I won't waste any chance that I can get ever again.


Thinking back to last Thursday and all the chances I had, I feel so stupid for having let them pass by me just like that.


I can't tell you how many times I've palm-faced myself because I regret not having taken the first step in making a conversation with him.


I fail as a girl.


But I'll go into that subject another time.


Please, please, please let Law and I talk with each other tomorrow and for all the other days after that.


PS. Here are my "fortunes" for tomorrow.


Judgment - Resurrection (Orthotopic) Fortune - Love This period of time, you two will find ways to love from previous mistakes. You will reunite with your former lovers. For singles, your love will be blessed by the love messenger and create a miracle of love. You will have great luck.


I'm really praying that that's true.


The Sun: Prosperity in relationships and career is possible now. Sun God present and shining down upon you. A good time to plant new crops or begin new projects from the ground up. Negativity of Moon's influences gone and cycle can begin anew. Truth and revelation. Good health, recovery and happiness. Time out in the sun is called for, perhaps a vacation to a warm place is warranted. All things bright and out in the open.