My type?

I just re-watched this video about Lee Jong Hyun just now while going through my other blog: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EhMwgR3yGRE&feature=g-like and I realised that I actually do have a type that I subconsciously fall for.

Well, apart from the fact that all the guys that I've had a serious interest in so far are Asian, they all hold some similar attributes and in this case, I'm going to compare Prince and Jong Hyun.

One, they are a bit awkward around people, especially around those that they aren't comfortable with.

Two, they have some kind of good boy aura around them but they kind of have some kind of hidden spice that they don't really show either.

Three, their smiles are really innocent and their entire face seriously lights up whenever they do. I don't know if Prince has any dimples or not though, unlike Jong Hyun, since I mainly make eye contact with him whenever I talk with him.

Speaking of which, Tia is plotting something so that I can get his number and although I don't really want that to happen, I'm curious enough to see how it'll go.

Anyway, continuing on, some of their physical features are also the same and they have the look that I would go for as well, dark hair, athletic build (not supremely muscular, mind you) and big eyes.

Well that's all that I'll be writing about now, I need to sleep.

I'm not dreaming am I?

Going to make things short cause I need to sleep real soon cause tomorrow is our cheer competition!!!


It'll be my first and last time being a cheerleader. :)


So, I didn't get to go online yesterday to post up what happened but actually nothing much did.


Yesterday, the year 1 Election Board people had to stayback for the Student Council Installation rehearsal.


I wanted to stayback and help with the decorating and all so that I'd get to talk with him but then the year ones were dismissed and I went back down to help with our sports' house banner (which looks pretty good if I do say so myself. XD)


Then as I was perched most inappropriately on the table (cause I couldn't reach certain places) I think I saw him looking in our direction.


Two minutes later, he suddenly appeared and I think he wanted to linger around but then maybe he thought that he couldn't cause he is from a different sports house so he left.


Then, as Elva and I were finishing up with the banner, all of our seniors came down and so did Law.


Then, I caught him looking at me, I think.


Notice that I put I think behind almost every thing that has something to do with him staring at me cause the way that he does it is not obvious in the least.


That was it for Thursday and I thought to myself last night "I must have screwed up everything."


Today was installation ceremony.


At the end, I saw that he was looking for someone but when he spotted me, he kind of stopped looking. I think.


Then, as we were arranging the chairs and tables, both of us instinctively moved to one end of the hall while almost everyone else clustered on the other side of the hall.


Then, we both worked silently but it was as if we were working side by side cause we were so near to each other but it was like both of us were keeping distance from each other.


But what happened after that is the most important thing.


He went to a different place as we were about to finish piling the chairs up when I was about to struggle with an armload of chairs but then one of the year 1 Election Board guys came over to help me and of course I gave a big smile which is something that I think I actually do very rarely.


That was when I turned my head and saw his face and it was kind of like.... I don't know.


At first, he was talking with another senior but when he saw the guy helping me out, he kind of went silent and his face looked slightly (very slightly) disappointed.


I think.


But throughout the day, we made eye-contact a few times (very few, mind you) and now I have more courage and confidence to not give up.


I'm no longer afraid to make the first move if I have to and I'm also no longer afraid to smile to him first when I see him next.


I'm going to cheer as enthusiastically as I can tomorrow using all this feelings that I have for him.


I hope this means something good.


My love prediction today: At this stage love is strong - so give your admirer the same look back and you'll be in for a few surprises.


I hope that it'll be really like that later on today. :)


I must go sleep now.

I don't understand myself sometimes

So first I'll just tell a bit about what happened to myself in general before I go on to talking about Law.


I was asked by one of my seniors if I was interested in becoming the Graduation Chairperson and I really didn't expect  that I'd get asked with that question.


My heart skipped a beat and I felt like I was lightheaded but I managed to calm down and asked if I could confirm with him tomorrow cause my parents aren't really that excited about me being very involved in extra-curricular activities.


But, I managed to convince them just now and now because of that, I feel like I need to study even harder for my parents so that I'll get good results for my A-Levels.


I will not disappoint them.


Okay, now about Law. :)


I didn't get to see him during the Fixed Campaign but during the Election Board meeting I saw him for a bit but of course I did my best to not stare at him.


When I got back to the lecture hall, for some unknown reason, my group mates were discussing about him and I wanted to join in but I just knew I'd end up embarrassing myself so I didn't.


I told one of my newly made friends that I liked Law and she said that she knew another person who admired him but according to her "My friend only thinks he's pretty and cute. XD"


=-=;


A lot of people say he's pretty but I don't think so.


He's hot.


Reminds me, I finally told Elva that I liked Law.


I got around to telling her cause she said she was interested in some people also. Law included.


But, she said that she only admired him and that it's obvious that what I'm feeling for Law is more deeper than her interest in him.


And then when she asked me why I liked him, I couldn't really point out any reason.


I mean, I know why I like him but I can't express them using words.


So I ended up saying "Because.... he's hot."


And then I screamed the place down cause I've never ever ever called any real guy that I liked "hot". X|


Okay, back to Law now.


I kind of expected that he wouldn't stayback today because he didn't yesterday but he did and I was quite happy that I'd get to work with him because tomorrow, I won't be able to work with him at all.


That part got me down a bit but then I just told myself to be patient.


Anyway, we started to carry tables to and fro different halls and there was one part where I was waiting for people to enter the hall before I could exit the hall whilst I carried two tables when Law suddenly said "Let the people carrying the tables pass through first."


At least he was kind enough to help me. :)


After that, I tried to keep my distance away from him so as to not distract myself too much but I noticed that while he was distributing stationary, he approached my station first before he gradually went away.


And then, when our leader asked some people to go to the other hall to help with the preparation, I went ahead and I didn't expect that he'd come as well.


He was with some friends and they were all joking with each other and laughing their heads off and I couldn't join them as much as I wanted to so I started to do my work.


I was alone at first but then one of the seniors came over to help me so I practiced talking to people older than me   and I'm happy  to say that our conversation went quite well although slightly awkward. At least both of us tried to keep the conversation alive. :)


When we were "finished", they began joking over the newspaper articles and there was one part when he came over to where I was and I think that he was "talking" to me (or rather, the other guys around us) and he said "A youth group? You mean like a church thing?" and then it got slightly silent and I was about to say something but then that moment passed.


There was one part when we were about to clean up and I was picking up newspapers that I think that he noticed me doing the tidying up.


He said something like "You okay? Do you need help-?" and he was about to come over and help me when one of my peers stepped in to help me. =-=;


SO CLOSE.


Another part was when I was beginning to wrap more tables and initially I was alone but then one of my seniors came over to help me and I noticed that Law also wanted to help but he hovered around awkwardly before going back to sit down.


WHY THE HELL DIDN'T I INVITE HIM???!!!!!!!


I regret that part A LOT.


After that, I just tried to act normally and talked with the other senior and I noticed that Law was always quite close by.


But there was one occasion when we almost bumped into each other and for some unknown reason, I felt a tense atmosphere between the both of us.


He used a different car today. I think it's his dad's one. All my seniors and him went to eat dinner together after that.  =-=;  So lucky!


Am I thinking too much?


Were all of those events just coincidences?


I really really really hope that I'll at least get to talk to him for a bit tomorrow cause tomorrow is kind of like my last chance to ever work with him in any way.


I MUST NOT HOLD BACK AND JUST GO FOR IT.


If not, who knows when my next chance will be?


I remember when Elva asked me how much I liked him (before she found out who Law was) I answered "I like him so much that if I don't see him at all for one day at school, I'll get really depressed."


As sappy as that sounds like, it's true.


Please please please let tomorrow be magical and miraculous for the both of us.

Causing my mind to spin and spin and spin...

There was a status update I saw on Facebook yesterday.


"Whenever we like a guy/girl, we always think that we're never attractive enough for them."


Well, not those words exactly but somewhere around those lines.


I can't help feeling that that's how I feel now.


Like when I look at myself in the mirror at home, I'd think "Hey, I don't look that bad. :)"


But then at school whenever I catch a glimpse of myself in any shiny surface I can hear my mind screaming "OMG YOU ARE SO EFFING UGLY!"


I showed my sisters his picture last night and I thought that one of them would recognize him since he was her junior in college but she said that she hardly saw him. Although there was a slight pause...


But for now since I'm not going to see him for more than a week, I'm going to improve myself tremendously so that the next time he sees me he'd at least acknowledge me as a person he'd be able to talk to normally.


Like for instance, I was really tempted to give stupid-lame mottos for our sports house but then I realised one of his best friends were in my house (it's a pity that he's not TT^TT) so I did my best to come up and find good mottos.


And some of the seniors liked the idea so hopefully, somehow, Law will find out and think that I'm not some stupid fool or something.


I checked his Horoscope yesterday and I found out that he is a Virgo.


Virgo


Positive traits: discriminating, fastidious, analytical, meticulous, modest, precise (i.e. a perfectionist who is down to earth)
Negative traits: fussy, self-conscious, cynical, hypercritical, finicky, over-conforming


Love trait: Dependable and sincere and have very few illusions about affairs of the heart. They show their love in small gestures than lavishing attention on their partners and are cautious in the extreme about making the first move. They are also too down-to-earth to be swept away.


In other words, he has a very high standard in everything.


I mean, I don't know him that well but I can tell what kind of person he is.


For example, modest.


He wears a plastic black watch, wears the same shoes everyday to school, wears old jeans and drives a very small car that is considered one of the cheapest here where I live. 
(I sound like a stalker but I just notice these things. It's not like I follow him around where ever he goes to. I just notice them whenever I bump into him by chance.)


Another one would be fastidious.


For their presentation, he made the slideshow and it was really awesome and it even had small details that made the slideshow even better.


About the negative parts... I'm not entirely sure. Maybe I'll get to know them when I get to know him even more.


And when I checked whether or not our relationship will be good or not, the book just stated "In tune".


What the hell does that mean?


My sisters told my mom that I liked him yesterday also and she keeps on wanting to look at him cause she's very paranoid about people that we like.


Even my sisters had to hide their boyfriends from my mom the first couple of weeks.


But now I don't feel too worried about not being able to talk to Law cause it took my sisters some time to talk to others as well. :)


I'm going to finish my designing work after this and then proceed to do my homework cause my family's going out to night and I'll get to taste my first real alcoholic drink in 18 years! XD


Okay, I should get going now. :)


Law is very cute. XD


Just thinking about our conversation the other day and his words to the interview candidates make me smile. XD


Cause what he said seriously sounded slightly crazy. XD

Almost, maybe, probably dented

Well today, I almost couldn't control myself from staring at him every time I saw him at the cafeteria.


I MUST NOT STARE.


While I was staring at him during the first break, I saw him sitting with a group of girls and I tried not to think too much about it but then when I looked back, there was this girl who sat like super close to him.


At first I was like, "Oh, so that must be his girlfriend."


But then, he had this rejecting kind of body language towards her.


He shifted his shoulders away from hers and then the next time I glanced, he was walking past me to a different table and then sat with a group of guys.


So, my hypothesis from this observation is;


a) She is not his girlfriend.
b) He does not like her flirting with him.
c) He is single.


^^


Of course I could be wrong but I don't know much about him just yet.


Or he could just be not on lovey-dovey terms with his girlfriend??? o.O


Anyway, he sat with a different group of people during the 2nd break (there were girls there too =-=, but a different set from usual) and I only glanced at him a million times cause I pretended to be looking at something behind him. XD


He was drinking Cola with his right pinky raised, but he somehow didn't seem gay.


OMG, PLEASE DON'T LET HIM BE GAY.


But he doesn't seem gay to me.


Well, from that information, I know he likes Cola and he's right-handed. :D


Although I only drink Cola at the movies or when I eat McD, I could drink it every day if it meant I could talk normally with him and be his friend. XD


The Election Board audition is tomorrow. I hope I'll be able to get through it and become an Election Board trainee cause a lot of my seniors are pestering me to run for a position in the Student Council.


I tried telling them "No" but I couldn't have told them that 50% of the reason why I'm joining the Election Board is so that I can become closer to Law.


Okay, I must go exercise now.  :D


I really want to be able to talk with him. :)


As in having a normal conversation with him.


Big dreams. XD