And today was a down

He only came for the afternoon class and even then, he was super late haha. I almost gave up on the idea that he was going to come.

At that point, something made me look at the doorway and he suddenly appeared which was a bit shocking since I didn't even hear the door opening.

And again, we made eye contact. Like it was as though he was searching for me. An assumption of mine, naturally.

But we didn't talk today.

At the most, he turned around a couple of times but we didn't even say "Hi" to each other, probably because we were at two different places.

I talked to his friends though that morning, on a different note. They were pretty nice to me. :)

Somehow, when I looked at him today, I felt my chest tightening. It was a strange feeling indeed.

One of the reasons is because... In truth... I'm scared of being in a relationship. I've seen so many people change for the worse (jealousy, paranoia etc.) and I'm scared that I will turn out just the same.

On the other hand, being in a relationship is really beautiful, especially if it's a meaningful one.

Then I think again, will I even dare to do all those things that a couple would do? Generally, I will never go far cause, call me old fashioned, but I actually want to be a virgin till my wedding night.

So yeah, in a way, I'm scared of really falling for him. It's as though I only realise now that he is a real person living near me, not just a celebrity or a figment of my imagination.

My birthday's coming up soon but it's not going to be on a weekend so I doubt anyone would actually remember haha. But somehow, I really prefer it that way.

Till the next time. :)

12 is my favourite number

So is 4, 7, and 19. Automatically, I think of my favourite numbers as my lucky charms and in a sense, I'm auspicious about them.

Hence, since today was the 12th of December of the year 2012, I automatically assumed that a miracle will happen to me. Nothing much happened though and as disappointed as I am, the size is insignificant compared to the disappointment that used to wallow me up last time when I used to like Law.

I should really be studying now but I can't seem to bring myself to study Urban Planning until I finish this post so hopefully after I type everything out I'll stop procrastinating.

For our morning class, a different lecturer took the place of our usual lecturer and the subject was really interesting although I couldn't comprehend it fully since it was about conceptual art and the use of it in architecture. I will definitely study and read up more about it.

During a short break (2-3 minutes short) something made me want to glance to my right and the second I did, I noticed that Prince was sitting on the other side. I think he caught me looking since I turned away immediately when he turned in our direction but I don't know for sure.

I am shocked that he attended that class cause usually he doesn't but I think he came for the special lecture.

For the afternoon lecture. he came in 5 minutes into the lesson and when he entered, he appeared to go to the other side of the hall and I found myself wishing that he'd sit at our side. He then stopped in his tracks and went over to our side and for a moment, it seemed that he hesitated to sit with some guys he knew before he sat down. It looked like he wanted to sit at the empty row in front of us but he didn't.

In the first part of the lesson, I accidentally kicked Yu's paper bag under her chair and it created a loud noise but only he turned to look in our direction. No one else seemed to care.

At another time, Yu needed to talk with her roommate through the phone so I stood up and got out of the row to let her pass through. At first, Prince didn't seem to notice but then I noticed that he suddenly turned to look behind even though the whole procedure was generally very quiet. He turned back in front after I sat down. I felt like he was checking to see whether or not I was going to leave class. I always feel like he's looking at me but then again, that's just a feeling.

He participated at the beginning of the lesson but got sleepier towards the end and by  the time the break came, he went home. I went to ask the professor some questions while he exited and somehow, it seemed like he was delaying in going back and when his friend left behind something in the place where they were sitting, he went to pick it up and even though his friend wasn't in the hall anymore, he kept calling his friend's name before he exited.

And for that I'm a bit pissed with myself because I resolved to speak with him that day but I just couldn't. I wonder why it's so hard for me to strike a conversation with him.

Anyhow, everything happens for a reason so I will just see whether I'll get the opportunity tomorrow or not. I really hope that I'll have more courage since tomorrow will be the last day that I'll get to see him as I'll be leaving for Malaysia on Friday.

Dear God, please let me be able to talk with him tomorrow, even if it's just for 5 minutes.

A turn here and a turn there

I just re-read some of my past blog entries and somehow, I feel so much more mature now then I was then, not in general but mainly on the falling in love aspect. I was extremely childish then to believe that things will always turn out the way that I hope it to be.

I really must thank Law and my old self for having gone through that experience because if I didn't, I would have been even more obnoxious now. Thank you so much.

Anyhow, that's why despite my huge interest in Prince, I am really being wary of everything.

We had Urban Planning again today and when he walked into class, Yu immediately gave me the look and I don't know why but I felt myself forming a smile. I wasn't as cool as I was yesterday sadly. I managed to stop smiling though haha.

He sat in the same row as us but he sat on the other side of the room so I didn't have much chance to look at him but it's okay. Well, not really. Since I didn't have something to distract me I kept nodding off and I did my best to stay awake. He was in the same row and side with the girl that I thought liked him but apparently she doesn't cause she switched seats after the break.

During break time he went to our side to begin talking with his friends who were sitting in front of us and I did my best to not stare at him.

At one point I said "Yes!" loudly and he turned to look in my direction. If it was really that loud, I'm sure his friends would've turned as well but they didn't.

And as childish as this may seem, I just want to hope that he turned to look at me because he already noticed me the minute he sauntered over to our side.

Towards the end of the lecture, our lecturer began summing up the class and at one point he used me as an example (since I come from Malaysia and we have different urban regulations there) and he (and a lot of people) turned to look at me. His reaction was a bit more quick somehow.

And then when I spoke up again to ask a very lame question, he also turned to look again.

And I don't know why but I just felt that he looked over to our side every now and then but I couldn't tell for sure since I couldn't exactly turn my head to look at him. There was one time that he rested his head on his arms and his face looked like it was facing our way and by instinct I turned to look at his side and when I did, he immediately sat up and faced the other side. It could just be my imagination.

I went out earlier than him, sadly, and I walked in the direction that he did yesterday since I wanted to go to Carrefour but we didn't meet at any point.

If I do get the chance to talk with him, at least I know I won't be as nervous as last time. I will do my best to not ruin anything.

I wonder why he really interests me. Maybe it's cause he looks like a Kai and Lee Jong Hyun hybrid hahaha. I don't think that's just it though. His aura, the way he holds himself, it catches my attention a lot. He listens to Marilyn Manson and I gave the music a try (and it is really scary TT^^TT) and I thought it'd turn me off but surprisingly, he catches my attention even more.

Maybe I'll get to see him this coming Tuesday. Otherwise, I'll just have to wait for 6 more days till I get to see him.

And now I will bath and sleep early cause I want to wake up early to do my studio homework.

Pink

I somehow expected that something good was going to happen today since Ana wished me "Buona giornata" today which means "Have a good day!".

Saying so, I finally saw Prince today after not seeing him for five days and you can bet that my mood just lifted instantly.

He came late for the afternoon classes as usual. XD

When he entered the class he sat in the front row and sadly, I was in the back row. I really didn't expect him to come cause I thought he was sick or something. His ears were bright pink and it's either because outside was freezing or because he was really embarrassed. Either way, it faded away in the end.

I think he looked behind once before he actually sat down and from time to time I just had the feeling that he purposely turned his head a bit in excess to the right whenever our lecturer walked to the right, as if he wanted to look behind him. It's just a feeling though.

The sad part about me not sitting in the front row is that we were grouped according to the rows we were seated in at the end of the lecture and was given a group task to do. I could've grouped up with him if only I sat in the front as usual... Haih...

The good thing about that is that he didn't group up with the group of girls he usually hangs out with. One of them who was sitting at the back row kept staring at him during the lecture.

We had to present our task at the end of class by selecting a spokesman/woman to represent the whole group and somehow I got nervous so I felt myself blushing and my palms turned cold because of the thought of talking in front of him kept looping through my mind. I didn't embarrass myself, thank goodness and I didn't even look at him during my presentation which is good as well.

When class ended, I was in really good spirits and I couldn't wait to get home to do my homework (which I will definitely do after this). He was also just getting out from his seat.

I wanted to look at him so I looked down from the top and I think I saw him look at me at the same time and again, with the same surprised face but I can't be too sure about that.

And just so that I could be near him, I approached the professor at the end of the lecture to ask a really meaningless question before I went out since Prince was also approaching the professor. He didn't really go out with the group of girls he usually hangs out with and talked with some guys (probably the only group of guys I actually talk with haha).

Overall, I am pleased with today.

Going to stay up late to do loads of homework!!! :D

Behind

I thought that Prince would go to on the class field trip to Venice to see the Biennale exhibition but he didn't so I was a bit disappointed but since I have been working hard on not trying to raise my hopes too high up, I wasn't that upset.

Today I was a bit late for class so when I finally got to class, almost everywhere was full so I had a hard time trying to find Yu but I found her roommate who was sitting near her bag after a minute or so. 

During that time, I was also scanning the class for Prince and I found him but he was sitting on the other side of the room and for a moment, I considered going to sit there since, at that time, I couldn't find Yu. When I found her bag though I made the decision to sit where she sat.

A few seconds later, Prince got up and walked over to our side and sat behind us cause his friends were sitting behind us and naturally I became just that bit more happy. Throughout the lesson, I was partly listening to him mock the teacher in English which is weird cause he usually speaks Siberian with his friends.

Now I'd like to think he spoke in English so that I could understand but that is just a fantasy.

Before the lecture started, I talked a lot with Yu which is a habit of mine whenever I'm near the guy that I am interested in. And it could be just my feelings or something but when class ended and he was talking with his friends (most of them are girls), he looked at me as I passed him.

During lunch time, I sat together with Yu and Isa outside the lecture hall and Yu and I talked about Prince with Isa. 

It surprises me that Isa never felt attracted to any guy before but then again, everyone is different and has their own preferences.

When Prince appeared in front of us, Yu began openly staring at him and she asked Isa to stare at him as well so both of them began to openly stare at him which was okay since he was around 3-4 metres away from us but still. 

And somehow I felt like he looked in our direction sometimes. I felt that his friend also looked our way a couple of times but it's just a feeling.

I was hoping that he'd sit behind us again for the afternoon lecture and he kind of did although we were separated by one seat. This time though, he sat directly behind me unlike that morning where he sat behind Yu.

Yu thinks he's very good looking as well, by the way hahaha. We have a lot of things in common. Typical for A blood type people to stick together hahahaha. XD

Anyway, during the break for the afternoon class, I went in front to ask the professor some questions and at first Prince stayed in his seat but he got up and started to follow his friends out of class.

But instead of immediately going out, he paused in front of the professor desk and I thought he was going to ask questions as well but then he began talking with another guy there but he stopped after some time and just stood there for awhile before he went out.

I don't know why but I felt like he was looking at me. It's just a feeling though.

Notice the amount of uncertainty I'm using. It's cause I don't want to raise my hopes too high up.

I feel sad that we only have four days of school cause I won't be able to see him till next Monday but it's okay cause there's no point in being sad if he doesn't even notice me.

I hope though that we'll be able to talk and become friends one day, unlike in Law's case.

A thousand words

I feel so freaking stupid.


Have I never even considered how he felt about me being so upfront about everything???


As far as I can see, he didn't take a picture with any other junior but me and I do feel slightly happy because of that but honestly, I bet he felt slightly awkward what with me suddenly talking like that.


But yet again, he said he is a nice guy and that he doesn't mind me disturbing him.


And, he's not pissed at me.


And, I caught him looking at me yesterday so aren't all of those good signs?


I mean, like when I knew that Roy was interested in me, I didn't try to catch a glimpse of him at school.


Well, I did look at him sometimes but only cause I wondered why he was interested in me.


The main point here is that I did not try to look at him the way that Law tried to look at me.


Recently, I told one of my high school friends, Lilia, about Law and she asked me to ask him out which is certainly an extremely daring move. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.


She said that he also kind of seemed interested in me and I can only keep hoping that that's true.


Anyway, the actual point of me blogging today is that I made a complete fool of myself today early in the morning and Law wasn't even there physically but I still blushed.


I was telling a couple of my friends that I took a picture with him and that June uploaded it on Facebook when one of them had the bright idea to use her iphone to log into Facebook to check it out and then I completely over-reacted and I have no idea why.


Roy was in the next table and he kept on glancing our way probably cause I was too loud. The other kids at that table were also looking my way.


I have a feeling that this will spread.


All my friends wanted to like it but I forbade them so they settled to bully me until June arrived.


I felt really happy though that they said we looked cute together cause we both looked like anime characters.


One of them even said we looked alike and that we had the same smile.


When I looked at the picture just now for a long time, I finally managed to admit that it looks pretty decent and quite good.


He looks really calm although there is a slight hint of awkwardness in his eyes.


I asked June what she thought of his conversation with me (cause she was there throughout that whole time) and she said that she was only looking at him to see his reaction.


She said that he was just smiling the whole time and his eyes were big.


I knew I wasn't imagining it when I said his eyes looked bigger than usual.


Ariel said that it was okay that I touched his shoulder cause then it made me look less like I'm afraid of him.


Come to think of it, I don't think I'm afraid of him anymore. I just really like him and I really want to be his friend.


Lilia suggested that I only text him after a week and I think that that's a good idea.


Anyway, I have to sleep cause I have a Chemistry pop quiz tomorrow.


I hope that Law and I will become closer. :)

To be a fool or to be a brave fool?

Guess what happened today?


Over the past few weeks, I always wrote letters to Law although I never intend to give them to him. Instead, I keep them in my white book that's decorated with post-its about Law and all of those usual girly crap.


I always write to him on Mondays cause somehow I get very upset and sad on Mondays.


But, that's not the main event of today.


As usual, after school, I sat down at a table in the assembly hall and began to write a letter to Law and just before I finished, I thought, "Hey, why don't I read back all my previous letters that I wrote to him?" So, I began flipping through the pages of my book.


And that's when I found them missing.


Both of them.


The only ones I wrote.


And one of them even had his and my initial for our first name.


That's not even the worse part.


As I had to go around collecting the money for the Election Board party last Saturday, I had to cart that white book around with me.


Never mind. I won't jump to that part yet.


I'll just start by telling all the normal things I usually say first.


I didn't attend English class cause by the time I reached school from the supposed "interview", I was late for class and I wanted to finish up the checking list for the Election Board party.


Anyway, during the first break as I was sitting down, June asked if I could see Law anywhere and I said no so she called him lazy. 


TT^TT


But then he showed up soon after she made that comment so she said he's a good boy.


:)


June said that she was looking at him the whole time he walked towards the food stalls and she saw him looking at me before he looked at her and then he turned away and looked in front.


Then, after break, I had to build up my guts to go to the year two's lecture hall to collect the money from my seniors and he was there also.


Thank goodness I didn't have to scream to get anyone's attention cause the minute I stepped in, some of them were already coming up to me to pay.


When I looked up from calculating the money, I saw that Law was already making his way towards me.

Law: Shit! I don't have enough money I think!

Senior 1: Why?

Law: I think it's cause I spent the money on chicken rice.

XD

He's so cute!

Except that he cursed but at least he didn't say "F".

Then, he handed me the money and he was about to walk away when I called him back.

Me: Law! Wait! I need your signature!

Law: My what? Signature? Where?

Me: Here. You can use my pen.

And then he signed it and went back to his seat.

But I noticed that when I was looking up and looking into the crowd to look for more seniors, he was definitely looking at me and it wasn't even for a short time only.

I mean, if you just happened to look at someone, you'd look away after like 2 seconds right?

He definitely looked at me for more than 5 seconds.

I went out after that.

2 hours later, I discovered that my letters to him were missing.

Now, where could it have went to???

Of course.

One of the possible places must be the lecture hall cause I brought the white book in there!

Initially, I felt really panicked but now, I feel like "Whatever happens, happens" and I'm not going to be some cowardly fool.

I might as well be a brave fool.

So go ahead humans, laugh at me.

It's a free country and I can like who ever I want to.

Oh, and this is my prediction for today.

A secret admirer will soon send you a sign of affection.

As well as this but this one's for tomorrow.

Having the Moon in your work sector is always an advantage, ensuring that you have your finger on the pulse and your ear to the ground. But as this is the Moon's last visit to your work sector before Venus returns in just 7 days time and before some important new doors start to open, it's even more important that you pay attention and that you listen to your gut, your hunches and your instincts.

So here I am. Trusting that whatever I did was right.

Going to watch The Legend of Korra after this cause one of my high school friend gave me the link and in a way, it shows that I have things in common with Law cause he watches this as well.

Not like he'll ever stalk me though to know that I'll be watching it.

I'm also jealous of some of my peers cause they got to write messages to our graduating seniors on a public bulletin board and Law got a message from someone as well. 

Something about being in the same abacus class or something.

Never mind, going to watch it now and I must study a bit before going to sleep.

Half asleep

This is going to be an ugly post cause I'm so tired and I don't have the energy to spruce this post up.


I didn't get to see much of Law today.


I only saw him during the second break and I think he looked at me once but after  I saw that, I didn't dare to look in his direction again.


As we were going up the steps, I saw him looking at me even if it was only for a short time.


I think I could laugh at all the predictions and tarot readings and stuff that the Facebook application people provide.


I wonder if they're true?


I've reached the point where when I think about him, I start to smile for no reason.


I asked a friend how to tell if a guy is interested in you or not and she said that a guy's interested in you when he looks at you often.


I'm not too sure about that though...


Hopefully tomorrow will be a good day.


I'm really tired and much as I'd love to go on, I can't.


Good night! :)

Really, the best camp I've been to, yet

So, I'll just try to recall back all the memories I had made and collected (especially regarding Law) the past 3 days and 2 nights I was away at Leadership Camp. :)


We'll go through all the events chronologically.


Day 1
As soon as school finished in the afternoon, I couldn't wait to go down and hop on the bus to go to Leadership Camp but naturally, I didn't act like some fool.


Okay, maybe I did.


When I got down, I had no idea what to do with my school bag (and my seniors had told me previously to not get confused =-=;) and so I went to ask one of the seniors what to do with it and he asked me to wait. Law was right next to him but of course I did my best to not look at him.


Although... he was still in my panorama of vision.


When I registered my school bag, he helped to carry it. 


That was part of his job of course, nothing special there.


And then I went to get ready at my station but since my bus was to be the last one to leave, our team was slightly too early so I went to help carry the bags instead.


At first, Law wasn't helping but then he eventually came by and helped out as well but I couldn't spend too much time helping him with the bags cause I had to return to my station.


My job was to hand out the booklets and tags for the camp and I hoped I'd get his tag but I didn't and if I did change my part of the booklets and tags with the other person, it'd be obvious so I decided to do my best to not try to get into anything that had something to do with him.


Sadly, even though I prayed, I didn't get to be in the same group as him.


In a way, that was good cause then if that had happened, he'd just think of me as someone under his wing so I used that to cheer up myself.


He sat at the back of the bus with the other seniors and I'm thankful I didn't turn my head a lot just to look at him.


When we reached camp, we helped out a bit and then we were given a basic briefing before we unpacked in our dorms.


Luckily, everyone in my dorm is nice and we all got along very well. :)


We had dinner after we bathed and all the Election Board juniors had to help serve the participants, buffet style, and I kept hoping that I'd get to serve Law but I never did. 


Throughout the camp. :(


Then we had our ice breaking game which had really unexpected but fun games. :)


We also had to do our cheer which had us pointing at the crowd and I kept on pointing subconsciously at him.


Idiot.


There was a workshop after that but since the Election Board didn't have a session for this workshop, we sat in a circle and discussed stuff and some of the seniors shared their stories with us.


There was a part when I suggested something that one of the seniors asked me to get permission for it from a lecturer and I kept on turning front and back because I didn't know how to put my questions into words and all that time, Law was there and I bet he thought I was stupid or something somewhere along those lines.


I was really active in asking questions during one particular session and I hope that no one felt annoyed with me. 


I don't want to annoy anyone.


And then we all went back to our dorms where we told ghost stories until 12.30 am and then we went to sleep.


Day 2
I woke up super early to bath and then we all went down to have our morning exercise.


I noticed that he looked at me, or maybe he just happened to look in my direction.


I helped out again at breakfast and I just caught glimpses of him every now and then.


We had more activities after that but I'm not in the mood to write about them cause my team had this kind of tense, black cloud hanging around.


All that I can say is that I kept on looking at him which was not supposed to happen.


70% - 90% of the time, he was on my mind.


During the photo session, I felt slightly sad that I was slightly shorter than my other friend (cause she was wearing shoes with thick soles and that made her taller than me!) but that was really a blessing in disguise cause I got to stand on Law's side.


I noticed that he is most definitely taller than me.


I couldn't estimate his height from a distance so I always thought that he was shorter than me but he isn't!


He is probably around 5-7 cm taller than me at least.


I never noticed that until he stood (not exactly) in front of me.


After that, we played a game kind of like a dating sim game except that it was more of a surviving game for a group of people than getting to score with some girl or something like that.


It was the best activity held during the camp, and I'm not saying this just because Law was one of those who held an important job in making it happen.


There was a part after we stopped playing it that Law said that the inspiration came from Battlestar Galactica and somehow, that name seemed familiar so I clapped my hands loudly while there were only a few other claps from other people.


And those other people were only guys.


No other girl was clapping.


You know why?



Battlestar Galactica is a sci-fi series which has been turned into video games and it is also a board game.


It seemed familiar to me but I didn't know why until I realised I heard about it and saw it from The Big Bang Theory which Law watches.



This really shows how feminine I am right?


But then when I clapped my hands, I noticed that he grinned at me but then again, that was only a quick glimpse because I didn't want to stare at him for too long cause I wouldn't know if I had to smile back or not.


Thinking back now (today is the 4th of March 2012) I should have. =-=;


I noticed that after that, while our group was practicing for talent night, he kept on passing us by with some friends and he even sat close to where we were practicing. But I'm sure those were all just lucky coincidences.


Our group went to have dinner after that and then we bathed and then everyone reassembled back at the main hall.


One of my friends called me "pretty" and honestly I felt a bit happy because then, maybe, Law would think I'm pretty.


But then again, I know I'm not pretty so I asked her to stop complimenting me and tried to change the subject by calling her pretty also.


Everyone then put on their performance according to what their given challenge was and some were really funny but others were a bit awkward.


Our group performed towards the end which was the second last slot.


We did a skit whereby a student made it into the Student Council but at the same time he got a scholarship so in the end he had to choose between the two.


But we got him to get both in the skit. :)


I was one of the Student Council interviewers and I was really nervous for two reasons.


A] It was only my second time acting in front of a really huge crowd (I can be usually found backstage with all the PA system and props making and stuff).


B] Law was paying attention to our skit.


Previously, he didn't really pay much attention to the other skit but then I noticed (as soon as I sat down in my place on stage) that he was paying attention.


He was sitting right across me and he wasn't part of the audience so in a way, I didn't have to pay much attention to him.


I almost messed up my lines halfway through though cause I caught him looking at me in an amused way cause I was kind of parody-ing him when he was interviewing the Student Council candidates and I think he knows that I was parody-ing him.


After we finished, we got a tremendous applause from the audience and I was a bit shocked really.


Even though there was a part that I embarrassed myself, someone told me that the seniors liked it cause they imitated me and even one of the seniors gave me a compliment after that.


I feel a bit pleased cause I knew that at least I'm not that bad at acting or anything like that.


We had a sing along after that and I noticed that as usual, whenever something very active comes up, Law just excused himself from the crowd and watched all of us being crazy (me screaming at the top of my lungs).


That doesn't mean he has bad showmanship though. 


He danced the banana dance twice on the first day and when his group had to do their cheer, he really put a lot of effort into it.


He made a really cute face. XD


I didn't get to serve him that night during dinner as well so yeah. :(


However, during supper while I was eating my instant noodles, he sat right across from me , two tables away and somehow my intuition tells me that he intentionally did that.


I did caught him staring at me.


And I'm sure that I'm not dreaming cause for a very short instant (maybe one nanosecond) we caught each other's stare but then I looked away.


I should stop that and the next time we happen to make eye contact, I will look back and give him a smile. (Edited on the 4th of March 2012).


That night, I told my entire dorm mates that I liked Law.


And I just met them.


Somehow, I really needed to get that of my chest.


Partly cause there was a part when I fell asleep for a short while during our talk and then when I woke up, they were talking about him and saying that he was cute and that they thought he was a girl the first time they saw him.


I just, you know, wanted them to know that I liked him.


I hope that they are trustworthy people but I know, the more people you tell, the sooner it will spread cause girls gossip a lot.


We stayed up till 2 am and by that time I knew everyone better and I also knew that I was the only one that had a crush on someone. No one else felt anything.


Day 3
When I woke up today, I went to bath and something made me want to bring my clothes to change inside the bathroom instead of in my dorm which was what I usually did.


When I came out, a whole bunch of seniors were right outside and Law was there with them.


My brain was processing too slowly so I didn't say anything but I knew they were all looking at me as I went inside my dorm which was very near to the public bathroom.


After a rigorous exercise and packing up, we had another activity but it was really boring.


We had breakfast after that and when I wanted to get bread for breakfast, Law was at that station and as soon as I was about to receive my slice from another senior, Law suddenly asked for "tweezers" for the bread so that he could help out.


I think he meant tongs. XD


There was another part shortly after that when I asked the seniors where all the Milo went to and then they all said that it finished and Law was also looking at me when I was asking but I didn't dare look at him.


We had more games after that but all I can say is that Law was still on my mind.


At the end of the day, after all the photo taking and all, I found out that we weren't going to be on the same bus back to school so I felt a bit disappointed but I knew he was staying behind to help with the cleaning up.


He's really a nice guy. He always stays behind to help with whatever cleaning up there is to be done like the clean-up of the unofficial Election Board room last Friday. (Edited on the 4th of March 2012)


I caught a glimpse of him again before we pulled away from the place but then I didn't want him to see me looking at him so I decided to busy myself in putting my headphones on.


Anyway, cutting out a lot of events, I was still waiting for my car when he arrived with other seniors and then he dumped his bag kind of near to where I was sitting.


Thinking about it now, why did he do that?


I mean, after that, he changed his bag's location to the outside part but he could have done that from the start, right?


But of course, it might have been another coincidence.


There was a part while I was busy doing homework when one of the seniors came over to us and talked a bit to us and he looked like he wanted to join in or something like that but then he went away.


He went home before I did.




Throughout camp, I kept on bumping into him and catching glimpses of him and I don't know if it's because of certain details other than maybe, fate?


I noticed that towards the end of camp, we were kind of approaching each other nearer and nearer whenever we walked past by each other.


The "approaching nearer and nearer" thing kind of got more frequent after that especially around the time when we had to prepare for upcoming events or when it was time to clean up.


But only when it seems as though there aren't that many people around us cause whenever there are people around us, we tend to make space between us. (Edited on the 4th of March 2012)


Is it only me who's noticing all of this?


Maybe I'm just thinking this way because I only focus my attention on him but then again, I don't remember always seeing anyone else as frequently as I saw him whenever we pass each other by.




There was a part during one of the workshops where the speaker said we are more attracted to things that are more similar to us.


I think that's kind of true.


He reminds me of myself sometimes throughout the camp and I kept on comparing those sides of him with my sides and they were almost similar.


I won't go into detail cause then it'd take me another hour to type it down and I've already spent an hour and thirty minutes writing up till this part.




I think I like him because he really is an attractive person not only appearance-wise but much more because of his personality.


I hope we'll get to work together again.


I hope this connection that I think is forming between us won't fade or disappear.




And because this is a very long post, I won't be able to make it very pretty but still, I'm doing the effort to make it look presentable and not boring. :)


And now that I re-read this and made it slightly less monotonous, I think I should make all my future posts a little less colourful as well. (Edited on the 4th of March 2012)


Going to sleep soon.