The final evening

Today was my prom day! :)


My sisters were really nice enough to put so much effort in making me look presentable and I actually felt quite pretty. I got compliments from a lot of people and that just boosted my confidence up even more.


When he first came, I couldn't find him in the crowd until much later and by then everyone had to enter the hall.


Because of my heels, I was way taller than him cause my heels were around 3.5 till 4 inches tall and were boosted by platforms as well. =-=


Anyway, I shall tell all the encounters that I had with him today. :)


The first one, Ariel and I had to go around, asking the Prom King and Prom Queen nominees to get ready outside the hall for their grand entrance, so we went over to the senior's side and I saw where he sat.


He looked really good. Like really really really good.


He was handsome.


Oh sheep, I'm so cheesy but I can't help it because he really did.


Even if he didn't follow the theme (vintage vogue) and only put on a regular suit, to me, he was the best one of the best ones.


Anyway, I was scanning the crowd of seniors when I saw him and his friend turn to look at me and he looked at me for a very long time.


I mean like, if you saw someone, you'd just glance and then turn back to your table, but he didn't.


He was still staring when Ariel and I left and I felt a bit happy.


I went on stage twice cause I was the girl holding the lucky draw bowl and at certain points, my knees shook.


I don't know if it was because I had been in them for over an hour or whether it was because I knew that he was in the crowd.


At the end of prom, I made my way to the senior's table after a moment's hesitation and I began talking and taking photos with some of my seniors, Blair and Melrose included.


He was still standing there and he was really close to us at one point but I was still too afraid to approach him and to talk with him.


Besides, he was hanging out a lot with Angel and a couple more of other friends.


Then, he went out and I began feeling upset and started beating myself up in my mind.


And so, I went out to find him, feeling lost because most of my friends were gone and then I got scared cause I couldn't find him so I thought that he left already.


Then, I saw him, still hanging out with Angel and the rest.


I slowly approached them, talking with other seniors and taking more photos with my friends when suddenly I was right next to them.


Then, Angel and I chatted for a bit before we took a photo together.


She's really nice. :)


While Angel and I were taking our photo, he turned around and left so I got really disappointed and sad.


For the next 5 minutes, I couldn't find him and when I did, he was inside the hall and I didn't dare to go in.


So I went over to June whom I finally got the chance to hang out with for a bit cause she was busy from the moment prom started and we took a couple of photos together as well as with some of our other friends.


I told June how I felt and she asked me if I wanted to take a photo with him and I said 'yes' but I couldn't cause I didn't have a camera.


"Never mind la! You can borrow mine!"


Her words made my night.


Really.


Thank you so much.


Then, Law came out from the hall with Angel and I got slightly panicked.

Me: How am I supposed to take a picture with him? I don't know what to say!

June: Never mind, I'll ask Angel to take a photo with us both and then you can take a picture with him!

So the three of us took a picture, him being the photographer (wonder if Angel thought that was weird since I already took a photo with her) and then he gave back the camera and was about to turn away when I stopped him.

Me: Wait, Law. Let's all take a photo. :)

June: Yes, the three of you.

Law: Sure.

And then, we stood next to each other, Angel to his right and I to his left.

But suddenly, Angel kind of left him and I there so June said "Never mind la, just the two of you."

I really wonder why she did that. Did she know that I only wanted to take a picture with him and so decided to help me? She just walked out from the frame and looked at Law and I for a while before she turned around and left.

And so, I now have a real picture of him and I together. :)

I didn't want to waste that moment so I decided to just talk to him.

Me: Law, is it okay if I ask you something? Do I annoy you?

Law: No!

Me: Are you pissed with me???

Law: No! *Grins* I'm just like that. (Referring to him not replying my text)

Me: Oh, good! Cause I was scared that you were pissed at me. 

Law: *Grins* I'm a nice guy.

Me: So you don't mind me SMS-ing you or anything?

Law: No! Of course not.

Me: So it's okay if I do SMS you anytime?

Law: Of course. I'm a nice guy.

Me: It's okay if I ask you for game tips right?

Law: Ya. *Nods*

Me: I'm going to miss seeing you in school.

Law: I'll miss you too.

He was grinning throughout the whole time we were talking.

I kept hitting his arm. I bet I was unconsciously flirting. =-=;

June was there the whole time, looking at the two of us.

Later on, she told me that she was so happy because she was happy for me and I find that really cute of her. :)

She got to take a picture with Sam too, although, she stopped liking him a long time ago.

Talking with Law was my highlight for that entire evening.

He looked at me at times quite often after that.

Then, I went around, talking and taking photos before I went home.

Yes, I feel really happy and extremely blessed that this happened cause now I know that it's really okay to communicate with him through Facebook and texts but of course I won't do it all the time.

However, I feel a bit sad.

Initially, it was cause I thought he and Angel had something going on but according to Skye, Angel likes one of Skye's ex-crush so there's no way there's anything between them.

That news cheered me up a bit but somehow, I still feel sad and I'm not too sure why.

At least I have this memory preserved and to be eternally kept inside a photo.

I cannot thank June enough for doing that for me.

Thank you so so so much.

Now, I can be sure that I have no regrets whatsoever.

I can actually imagine how it'd have turned out if I never did anything.

I'd be here, feeling all sad and pathetic and regretting a whole lot.

I feel proud of myself for accomplishing something that I never thought I'd ever do, something that I thought was really impossible at the start of this year.

He doesn't mind keeping in contact with me and I feel relieved that I didn't confess to him.

Now, I just need to build a friendship with him.

It'll be slightly difficult now that I don't see him a lot but there'll surely be a way.

Need to sleep now cause I have mooting tomorrow. :)

PS. I received a lot of "you're really sweet" compliments from a lot of seniors and it feels good. :)

I don't understand myself sometimes

So first I'll just tell a bit about what happened to myself in general before I go on to talking about Law.


I was asked by one of my seniors if I was interested in becoming the Graduation Chairperson and I really didn't expect  that I'd get asked with that question.


My heart skipped a beat and I felt like I was lightheaded but I managed to calm down and asked if I could confirm with him tomorrow cause my parents aren't really that excited about me being very involved in extra-curricular activities.


But, I managed to convince them just now and now because of that, I feel like I need to study even harder for my parents so that I'll get good results for my A-Levels.


I will not disappoint them.


Okay, now about Law. :)


I didn't get to see him during the Fixed Campaign but during the Election Board meeting I saw him for a bit but of course I did my best to not stare at him.


When I got back to the lecture hall, for some unknown reason, my group mates were discussing about him and I wanted to join in but I just knew I'd end up embarrassing myself so I didn't.


I told one of my newly made friends that I liked Law and she said that she knew another person who admired him but according to her "My friend only thinks he's pretty and cute. XD"


=-=;


A lot of people say he's pretty but I don't think so.


He's hot.


Reminds me, I finally told Elva that I liked Law.


I got around to telling her cause she said she was interested in some people also. Law included.


But, she said that she only admired him and that it's obvious that what I'm feeling for Law is more deeper than her interest in him.


And then when she asked me why I liked him, I couldn't really point out any reason.


I mean, I know why I like him but I can't express them using words.


So I ended up saying "Because.... he's hot."


And then I screamed the place down cause I've never ever ever called any real guy that I liked "hot". X|


Okay, back to Law now.


I kind of expected that he wouldn't stayback today because he didn't yesterday but he did and I was quite happy that I'd get to work with him because tomorrow, I won't be able to work with him at all.


That part got me down a bit but then I just told myself to be patient.


Anyway, we started to carry tables to and fro different halls and there was one part where I was waiting for people to enter the hall before I could exit the hall whilst I carried two tables when Law suddenly said "Let the people carrying the tables pass through first."


At least he was kind enough to help me. :)


After that, I tried to keep my distance away from him so as to not distract myself too much but I noticed that while he was distributing stationary, he approached my station first before he gradually went away.


And then, when our leader asked some people to go to the other hall to help with the preparation, I went ahead and I didn't expect that he'd come as well.


He was with some friends and they were all joking with each other and laughing their heads off and I couldn't join them as much as I wanted to so I started to do my work.


I was alone at first but then one of the seniors came over to help me so I practiced talking to people older than me   and I'm happy  to say that our conversation went quite well although slightly awkward. At least both of us tried to keep the conversation alive. :)


When we were "finished", they began joking over the newspaper articles and there was one part when he came over to where I was and I think that he was "talking" to me (or rather, the other guys around us) and he said "A youth group? You mean like a church thing?" and then it got slightly silent and I was about to say something but then that moment passed.


There was one part when we were about to clean up and I was picking up newspapers that I think that he noticed me doing the tidying up.


He said something like "You okay? Do you need help-?" and he was about to come over and help me when one of my peers stepped in to help me. =-=;


SO CLOSE.


Another part was when I was beginning to wrap more tables and initially I was alone but then one of my seniors came over to help me and I noticed that Law also wanted to help but he hovered around awkwardly before going back to sit down.


WHY THE HELL DIDN'T I INVITE HIM???!!!!!!!


I regret that part A LOT.


After that, I just tried to act normally and talked with the other senior and I noticed that Law was always quite close by.


But there was one occasion when we almost bumped into each other and for some unknown reason, I felt a tense atmosphere between the both of us.


He used a different car today. I think it's his dad's one. All my seniors and him went to eat dinner together after that.  =-=;  So lucky!


Am I thinking too much?


Were all of those events just coincidences?


I really really really hope that I'll at least get to talk to him for a bit tomorrow cause tomorrow is kind of like my last chance to ever work with him in any way.


I MUST NOT HOLD BACK AND JUST GO FOR IT.


If not, who knows when my next chance will be?


I remember when Elva asked me how much I liked him (before she found out who Law was) I answered "I like him so much that if I don't see him at all for one day at school, I'll get really depressed."


As sappy as that sounds like, it's true.


Please please please let tomorrow be magical and miraculous for the both of us.

And the probability was really 0.01...

Today I was to become the secretary for the EB.  :)


I did my best to not expect to even meet Law today cause he hardly stayed-back yesterday so I just thought to myself, "What is the probability that he'd even stay-back for today and if he did, what would be the probability that I'd even get to see him since I'm working in a room and he'll probably be walking around, ushering people maybe?"


And so, as soon as I got excused from the laboratory, I rushed to my work place, eager to get started even if it meant I couldn't see Law.


When I reached the meeting place, they told me that my room got changed and so I went to my allocated room, ready for work.


And then just as I sat down in my place, he entered the room and walked around a bit before going out.


I thought to myself, "Well, at least I saw him for a bit today. :)" when he suddenly came back in with his bag and sat down.


Turned out, we were kind of working together. :D


We got properly introduced to each other and even if he did forget my name halfway through, at least he asked what my name was again.


And when I dropped my pen to the ground, I think I bumped into a wall but I really don't remember doing so but then he pointed it out. He said something again after that but then the next candidate came in.


He hardly asked any questions to the candidates and I was a little surprised what with him having a vast experience in all kinds of public speaking competitions.


At least he isn't as fair as he looks like. XD


And I really like his voice. It's so clear and filled with a certain aura that makes you want to stop whatever it is you're doing and pay attention to him.


And even when he messed up a bit, he still managed to cover-up his mistakes and I was really impressed.


On a side note, I'm glad I didn't run for SC cause their expectations were so high and I had this feeling that I wouldn't even look impressive. :|


I hope I'll get to work with him even more. :D


God has really been kind to me and so I shall study after this as a sign of gratitude.


I also hope that I'll get to say "Hi!" normally to all my seniors and that we could all be really friends with each other.


I mean, even with Law, cause you know, it'll be hard trying to get him to like me in that way so it'd be good even if we can become friends that can actually talk with each other normally. And then become really good friends. :)


Up till this day, I haven't had any really close relationships with friends who are older than me.


Maybe, hopefully, he'll become one. :)