Even if he doesn't know

Even though he doesn't know that he's causing a really huge positive effect in me, I hope that at the very least he knows that he really does wonders for some of his fans.

Because of him I'm thinking and being more healthy and because of him assignments and tasks don't seem to bother me too much.

Thank you so much. I will work harder. :)

Gets into slow motion

I've found another idol to start gawking over again. :D

Introducing Lay/Zhang Yixing of EXO-M! :D

He is like my dream guy. Well, that's only based on the things that I know about him so far haha. But he's really quiet and refreshing, passionate and hardworking, lovable and yet awkward. He does seem a bit like Prince, his personality I mean, but only a bit.

I don't think I like Prince but I sometimes feel a bit happy when I see him, not like I'll let that happiness bloom any further. I do feel like that we could be friends after some more time has passed.

At the end of the lecture today, I saw him talking with the Australian guy. They're probably close because they went to one of my classmate's birthday bash the other week and they met there.

As I was passing by both of them with a friend of mine, Prince kind of stopped talking with the guy and, I think, he turned to look in our direction. Maybe he was looking at my friend since she had a skirt on, I'm not that outstanding anyway but I felt myself hoping that he wanted to look at me and that he wanted me to say 'Bye'.

But I will definitely not let myself fall for him again, even though I think that we have the same brainwave.

I'll just let God and fate plan my life out.

Danosaur

Unless it isn't obvious, I'm already in the process of losing interest in Prince, mostly because I know I don't have much hope.

Also cause I got a new fixation.

A couple of weeks ago, Summer showed me a video by Jacksgap (?) and we were watching quite a bit of videos before she decided to show me one where the twins did a video with a YouTuber called danisnotonfire.

For me, heck yeah, he is really good looking. XD

And I thought he'd be like some cool dude who would be a little bit full of themselves so I didn't bother to check him out anymore.

Until recently, that is, since I'm procrastinating a lot on loads of things.

And so, I decided to check him out.

And he is so completely different from what I perceived.

I think if I'm very lucky, I'll one day be able to get a guy who has at least some of the qualities he has (not the procrastination part though cause then 2 procrastinators in a relationship would be just horrifying hahaha).

Somehow I feel a bit more inspired to continue studying from watching his videos. It really helps me a lot.

And what I find odd is that I actually, genuinely, enjoy his videos and I honestly smile and laugh at some parts. Like a LOL kind. And that, my friends, is extremely rare for me.

I think it's because of his brutal honesty and the way that he carries himself.

Also, he is smart, in the sense that he is really rational and knows how and when jokes should be made. Academically-wise, I have no idea hahaha.

He makes me feel like I should be "me". Like I can be comfortable in my own skin.

So thank you, Dan. Thank you for making my day hahaha.

It would be a lie if I said I'm not attracted to him (I think gamers are really cool actually) but I think I just enjoy this feeling of butterflies in my stomach, knowing that I can continue dreaming the impossible because it'll be a one in a million chance to be able to speak with him and become his friend cause he really seems like a good guy to be friends with.

It's been a long time since I was into a guy who isn't in real life and I feel a bit more comfortable somehow hahaha.

I also just realise that this is probably the first so called "fan rant" that I have done on this blog and yes, in case you didn't read the first post this blog is also dedicated to these kind of things.

I feel like I can finally relax now and open up more to people somehow.

And now back to work. :)

P.S. Here I leave the video where I got introduced to him hahaha.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Bk9nKZcicw