In the midday

I had another weird dream about him while I napped today from 10am till 12pm.


A lot of details are fuzzy but the one bit that I do remember I won't mention but just posting this post will remind me of it because it was the first that I ever dreamt that something like that happened to me in a dream.


I was chatting with June just now and she said that she was reading my previous blog post and that if he really were in our class, I would ignore her.


LOL. HAHAHAHA. XD


That was very cute of her. :)


Anyway, I realised today that after June, I will no longer see him again and I do feel really sad.


I don't know if I'll still continue to chase after him but I think I might cause whenever I like someone, the feeling doesn't go away fast unlike most of my friends and sometimes I envy them for that.


I might be chasing after him for years, who knows?


I would really like a second shot at building a friendship with him.


Hopefully God will help me.

Scared of putting too much hope

Yesterday (since it's already past 12.30 am here), I didn't see Law at school at all.


Our college was having a blood donation drive and maybe he just didn't like the thought of needles or something cause that's kind of the case for almost all the guys here.


I got to donate blood too and I only felt slightly dizzy after that but it's all good.


Anyway, today is the day that I've been waiting for. The Election Board party.


I talked to a couple of seniors just now (a huge improvement! I was the only junior talking to them! :D) and they said that they couldn't wait for it.


I wonder if Ray knows that I like Law.


I have a feeling that he does somehow.


And he's treating me quite nice so I feel a bit scared but I shouldn't over-analyse this situation.


But come on, anyone would be a fool if they didn't know I was interested in Law if they had saw or heard about my reaction towards his grin that day.


And Ray is kind of close with Law.


Somehow, everything good happens on a Tuesday.


I checked my horoscope and Law's horoscope and both of them had almost the same reading.


Apparently, today is the day that we should let our voices out or something as it will be a second chance for us to make up for lost time and all.


And, I've been checking his compatibility with mine and we never had a day where both of us were compatible with each other.


Until today.


We are each other's compatible partner today.


I'm not going to hope for much but please, let something good happen between the both of us today. Please.

Tired

I'm feeling very tired somehow even though I only sat under a tent to register the volleyball players.


Oh, I finally finished reading Showdown at Centerpoint!


And despite all the negative feedback the critiques gave for this book, I still found the book extremely enthralling and exciting.


I now know why guys love Star Wars so much.


Now I'm going to start reading Legacy of the Jedi which I must finish soon cause I want to read Hunger Games (downloaded into my trusty pendrive) before I watch the movie.


In any case, all of this reading came about from Law.


I noticed that whenever I start to really like someone, they somehow manage to introduce new things to me, indirectly of course.


The reason why I didn't blog yesterday was because I felt a bit disappointed yesterday.


He didn't come for the photo session and I wondered why.


Then, I realised that he wasn't at school.


Well, that's what I think.


My friend, Sasha, told me that she saw him yesterday but she wasn't sure.


She always, somehow, manage to see him.


That's what she said anyway.


For now, I don't have the feeling of butterflies in my stomach probably cause I haven't seen him in a long time.


But, whenever I think of him, I smile.


All my predictions today is about getting a second chance.


And there was also this: Stay on the course, keep looking for the good and things will go your way in the long run - even if they don't appear to be working out in the short run.


Anyhow, I do agree that getting him to like me within the past 2 months was a bit too much so I'll just wait. :)


Sasha and I talked today about some of her problems and I listened to her.


Most of them were related to relationship crushes and stuff.


It made me wonder, if some people already notice that you like someone, doesn't that principle apply to me as well?


In other words, do other people other than my friends notice that I like Law?


I'm feeling really sleepy so I think I'll go to sleep soon.


I will continue to like Law even though nothing happens between us for now cause he really is one-of-a-kind and I'd hate to think that I never dared to do anything to be part of this one-of-a-kind person's life.


Sleep. :)