Pause and analyse carefully

Okay, before I go on, I must just rant about Hunger Games.


Don't waste your money on watching the movie.


The book is a million times better.


I was so disappointed in how the movie turned out and I can't believe that it actually got good reviews because the way it turned out was so different from the book it's as though the director never read the book thoroughly to get the real message.


For starters, Haymitch was so not Haymitch.


He was a completely different person.


And then there was the weird guy in the beard who was never in the book in the first place.


And then President Snow kept on making appearances that were not even necessary when in the book he only started to really come into the picture towards the end of the book.


There are so many other things I'd like to point out but I'll just set those aside and keep them to myself but the way the movie was made was so superficial like the director focused solely on the "good side and evil side" and not on the sufferings of the people in the district, Katniss's opinions and so forth.


Okay, I'm feeling slightly better now.


Time to talk about Law. :)


Today I saw Law early in the morning cause I stayed downstairs in the cafeteria as I was waiting for Helen to photocopy my Physics practical exercise but I didn't dare to look at him properly.


I was really excited to have my first break because I wanted to let my friends sample two cakes that I made in preparation for the Election Board party this Saturday but then I found out that I had to attend a meeting because I'm part of the crew for the blood donation drive tomorrow so I got a bit sad.


Nevertheless, I rushed through the meeting cause the briefing was basically being read off the paper that was being handed around.


When I went to the cafeteria I saw Law but I couldn't find anyone else and I was about to give up and just go back upstairs cause Helen was holding my cakes when Elva showed up so I had a friend. Then, Helen showed up and gave me the containers of cake and June also showed up.


Helen had to go back to her group of guy friends that she was hanging out with so only Elva, June and I sat at the left side of the canteen which was quite far away from Law's table and in a way, I was quite happy with that cause I felt that I would just blush if we were sitting near him.


Then, as three of us were talking, I noticed that Law was walking towards us but then he turned around and walked back. Then, he turned around again and walked towards us but he made a turn to his right behind Elva to throw rubbish into the rubbish bin before he made his way back to his friends.


Then, when the bell rang, he and his friends got up and if I'm not mistaken or imagining it, the whole gang passed by us with Law and another guy walking in front of me behind Elva and another gang going around the table to my right.


"Why would this be of any significance?" you may ask.


For one, there was another rubbish bin that was nearer to Law so why did he have to walk all the way to where we were sitting?


Also, there are more than one way to pass by us so why did they kind of crowd around us?


Then June told me that while they were all passing by, Law looked at me for awhile before he went.


Also, during the second break (which I could not enjoy due to another meeting), June had to sit alone and she was sitting near Law's table and she saw him look towards her table.


June thinks that he might have been checking to see if I was coming or not and she wished that I could've come.


I wanted to so badly but I was being held back. =-=;


Earlier on, I passed by him on the stairs and it felt a bit weird and one of my friends,Queenie, suggested that I should've asked him to come and watch Hunger Games since I had an extra ticket but I said no cause I don't have the guts to do that.


Anyway, I have to sleep soon cause I want to donate blood tomorrow.


I hope that I won't faint or anything.

The Beginning

Tomorrow is D-Day.


I'm sick and tired of waiting and being a pathetic fool.


Also, according to my horoscope, tomorrow will be the beginning of months of romance and love so yes, that does inspire me to make the first move.


Today, I saw Law a lot of times as I had no meeting whatsoever and I'm hoping that'll be the same case for tomorrow.


Okay, before I go on, let me just tell you what happened during the first break.


I was doing my group's Malaysian Studies project when one of my fellow Extra Curricular Activities Committee members came and sat down and talk to me.


We both talked for awhile when Roy suddenly appeared and asked if he could sit down. 


So my friend (he's a guy) said yes.


And so he proceeded to sit down.


In front of me.


Then, he tried talking to me but I did my best to show him that I was busy and not interested.


Then, when he went away, another classmate came and sat down and he kind of teased me about Roy but he kind of failed there.


The worse bit was that Law saw him sitting down with me and you know, that normally spells out "I'm going out with this dude" in my college and no I do not want him to think I'm going out with Roy.


I like Law.


I like you only.


I caught him looking at me, even if it was just briefly during the second break while I was getting my cutlery but then I didn't dare look in his direction.


Then, I sat down in a table quite near him. (That happened during the first break as well).


Towards the end of break, I sat with Helen and June.


Helen wanted to leave early so she said that all of us should start to go up and I kind of hesitated because I wanted to stay down there and be near Law as much as possible but I didn't want to drag her down so I got up.


That was when June suddenly said that I must say "Hi" to Law right then and there.


I panicked.


I wanted to runaway to the other staircase while June was about to approach Law who was waiting for his friend who was buying stuff but I couldn't cause Helen was heading towards the staircase in that direction.


Then, as I was about to approach where Law was (who was standing behind June), he walked away with his friend and the second he did, I laughed out loud and I don't know why.


It doesn't matter does it?


You know why?


Tomorrow, I will say "Hi" to him, no matter how OR what.


I'm just going to toughen up my skin and say "Hi" to him even though we haven't spoken to each other in over a week.


I will.


I will stop wishing and I will start acting.


Please, wish me luck.


PS. I saw that he signed up for this game on this website (www.warfare.com) and the trailer looks super awesome like WOW. The game hasn't been released yet and I've already signed up for it so hopefully, I'll get connected to him someway or another.
Currently reading the Hunger Games (which Skye and Rainie bought for me and Summer even though they hate the series) and it's AWESOME.

Tired

I'm feeling very tired somehow even though I only sat under a tent to register the volleyball players.


Oh, I finally finished reading Showdown at Centerpoint!


And despite all the negative feedback the critiques gave for this book, I still found the book extremely enthralling and exciting.


I now know why guys love Star Wars so much.


Now I'm going to start reading Legacy of the Jedi which I must finish soon cause I want to read Hunger Games (downloaded into my trusty pendrive) before I watch the movie.


In any case, all of this reading came about from Law.


I noticed that whenever I start to really like someone, they somehow manage to introduce new things to me, indirectly of course.


The reason why I didn't blog yesterday was because I felt a bit disappointed yesterday.


He didn't come for the photo session and I wondered why.


Then, I realised that he wasn't at school.


Well, that's what I think.


My friend, Sasha, told me that she saw him yesterday but she wasn't sure.


She always, somehow, manage to see him.


That's what she said anyway.


For now, I don't have the feeling of butterflies in my stomach probably cause I haven't seen him in a long time.


But, whenever I think of him, I smile.


All my predictions today is about getting a second chance.


And there was also this: Stay on the course, keep looking for the good and things will go your way in the long run - even if they don't appear to be working out in the short run.


Anyhow, I do agree that getting him to like me within the past 2 months was a bit too much so I'll just wait. :)


Sasha and I talked today about some of her problems and I listened to her.


Most of them were related to relationship crushes and stuff.


It made me wonder, if some people already notice that you like someone, doesn't that principle apply to me as well?


In other words, do other people other than my friends notice that I like Law?


I'm feeling really sleepy so I think I'll go to sleep soon.


I will continue to like Law even though nothing happens between us for now cause he really is one-of-a-kind and I'd hate to think that I never dared to do anything to be part of this one-of-a-kind person's life.


Sleep. :)