I feel like my tiny, anonymous voice is finally heard because I could really just talk a lot about guys with my friends but I have to restrain myself.
This is partly because I think that as long as I don't speak about Prince with others, my feelings for him won't become real and thus I won't need to go through what I went through when I liked Law.
Well... I can't say that the attraction is not there. In fact, it is slowly starting to grow into a feeling.
He didn't show up for the morning lecture today and I really felt sad and disappointed but I just held it in and told myself to just concentrate and wait for Monday.
During the lunch break, I told Yu that I liked someone but I didn't mention the person's name.
Well... I wasn't (and probably still isn't) sure of my feelings for him but one thing for sure is that when I saw him come in late for the afternoon lecture, my heart started beating really fast.
And I was freaking blushing.
And I don't know why.
Okay, maybe I do. I just refuse to admit it.
Since I sat at the back of the class for once (and since the lecture was almost similar to the one last week) I ended up talking with another friend, Tia, who was talking about guys that she likes and I told her that I liked someone too.
Naturally, Yu overheard and both of them started to guess names and when they finally found out that it was Prince, Yu smiled.
Yu: I somehow knew it was the Hong Kong guy you were talking about when you told me that you liked someone during the lunch break!
Yu left during the 10 minute break and I took that moment to "show him" that I was in class by going in front to talk with some people. He was sitting alone today though. I wish I could sit with him haha.
When lecture started, there was a point when I wanted to look at him (since he was sitting more in front than me for once) so I turned to look to my left and I think he was looking as well, I think, because he hastily turned away to look in front.
When I answered a question in class, he turned to look at me and I got so nervous I almost stammered but I kept my cool.
I made some new friends today and one of them was going to an architectural seminar after class so I decided to follow her. I noticed that Prince had already packed his bag and I assumed that he wanted to leave early. When I left though, he was still in the classroom and I found myself wishing that he would go to the seminar as well.
Halfway through the seminar, I saw that he was sitting in front and I wondered how he got there so fast. Naturally, I wanted to talk with him after the seminar ended.
Unluckily for me though, when the seminar ended, my friend wanted to go back immediately so I didn't get the chance.
When I was putting back the chairs that we used, I looked up and then we made eye-contact cause he came over to our place to talk with a guy, who is one of the few guys that I talk with (funny how I talk to almost every guy that talks with him but I don't talk with him). There was definitely no mistake in that. He looked surprised to see me there and I was about to walk over to him and begin talking with him but I couldn't move somehow and I was forced to turn around and talk with my friend cause she didn't seem to want to talk with them.
I wonder how I looked like...
I hope that I didn't mess up my chance though.
I will do my best to fix this and I hope that I will have the courage to speak with him.
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