Yeah, that pretty much sums up how I feel when I see him online.
I thank God that I'm not so shy anymore and that I'm taking small baby steps in socialising, but I'm still not at the level where I can just Facebook chat anyone randomly without feeling a bit awkward when I see them.
That's why whenever I see Prince online, I get just a bit more sad.
Adding him made me realise just how big my fantasy is. Again, this is one of the reasons why I didn't want to add him, so that I could keep making up things without falling to the concrete floor and breaking my head and heart.
I'm dealing with this fall better than last time but I can still feel some thunder clouds in my head. Or maybe it's just cause I'm tired.
Either way, I just wish that for once the guy I have an interest in will be interested in me as well or that someone will make the first move to get to know me since I'm the one who initiates things.
It so hard to crack through this unapproachable aura that's sheltering me.
No comments:
Post a Comment