He didn't attend the lecture today which makes me feel partially relieved but now I do think the friendship between him and I as well as with Carl is quite strained and I need to fix that. I don't like having any strained relationships with anyone.
I like going for classes because then I'm not alone with my thoughts and at the very least I can pretend to be okay in front of people.
I told Rosa today and she said she felt sad for me. Talking with her made me feel a bit more better.
Here comes those 'if only's, running through my mind.
But I won't type them out, don't worry.
I hope things will go okay tomorrow. At the very least, I don't want any awkward silences. Let's see if I can play a puppet again tomorrow. A cheerful one that is.
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